NADHIRAH IB'S

its time

2012-01-08T17:58:00.002+08:00

i guess it is time.

good thing also has its end.

id actually signed up for wordpress but still learning how to use it. am not sure gonna continue with that or not. but we'll just see.

anywhoo. countdown for a week to close my blog (poyoness) starting today. it is sad though.seriously.

okay bye bye.

thinking

2011-12-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

after STALKING someone and knowing how i JUDGE someone with his/her social account, blogs, pictures etc, im thinking to get rid of this blog.

I'm afraid that is how people judge me too.

too much information, is no good.

too much old stories, characters, which didnt really portray myself right now.

plus, i dont really have so much time to spend on blogging. final year coming up. and i got lotsa reading to be done :(

agak terpukul when my lecturer aka consultant medicine said: 'you see, previously when i was teaching indians final year student, we used to make lotsa reading before class. with you, we dont have to do any. *sarcasm*'

i guess we are in so much comfort, that we forget why we're sent here.

so, i guess ill get rid of this soon enough.

or perhaps ill start making new one, new good fresh start. minus the past and less graphic. kehkeh

wordpress sounds great.

we'll just see.

whatever it is, ill inform later.

till then. :)

(haha. nak delete blog pun macam takde masa je. not that i really dont have time, its just that i want to reduce the time i spend with laptop. LESS VIRTUAL, MORE REAL PEOPLE. keh keh)

tiada tajuk

2011-12-21T20:15:00.004+08:00

title sahaja sudah menggambarkan betapa tak berisinya post aku kali ni.

tadi petang aku keluar nak angkat kain. ffuhh sejukk sangat Bangalore ni. nak pijak tiles memang malas sungguh. terpaksa carik balik selipar yang dipakai bile time2 winter ni tapi tak jumpe plak. eh itu cerita lain

ceritanya bertambah sejuk hati bila tengok scene-scene yang menyentuh hati ni.

alahai sweetnye this old couple

i had started my new rotation. surgery.

memang bestla kan kalau dah tiap-tiap hari balik pukul 1. SDL memanjang. ~~padahal baru 3 hari start~~

surgeon is most busiest person in the hospital. ohh. lagi la susah nak belajar. dan aku adalah orang yang paling malas nak masuk OT. sangatlah mals nak tukar baju semua. dan sangatlah penat berdiri melihat operasi didalam bilik yang kepam. ohh

sistem baru ni memang best. banyak SDL means banyak lah masa-masa terluang yang memang tak pandai nak dimanfaatkan oleh aku. sad sad

*SDL=self directed learning

SDL just dont work for me!

i was too dependent on lectures before. kat rumah bersuka ria. and now i even forget how to read when there's no exam.

aku memang tak pandai nak belajar-belajar sendiri ni. everyday azam nak baca a chapter but end up reading none, pastu 'eh baca esok pagi lah' in which aku bangun siap2 dah pukul 7 dah nak siap pegi sekolah balik. aiish

NO, this isn't happeninggg. oh nooooo

terang-terang nampak ini cuma alasan-alasan kau cipta, nadhirah. sudahlah!

i like break

2011-12-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

well, one week break for a day exam is the only thing that keep me ~~alive~~ happy right noww!

especially when u only have short posting like me. so yeayy

but..

yeah there is always a but, (reason for me to write tooo)

who invent this logbook system huh?

ridiculous invention everrr.

susah kot nak catat nama patient everytime tengok procedure. i mean seriously, it is a MAJOR distraction

so gonna go to hospital record store, to recheck cases seen etc.

kan dah susah. haih haih.

sebenarnye bosan. saje nak menaip

byeeee

rindu sarah, huda, hanisah, kakilah, kakani, abajak, abatim, loqman, MAK and ABAH. :)

Yeay i love my big familyy

betullah

2011-12-08T20:28:00.003+08:00

bila diri ditimpa kesakitan, baru ada masa untuk reflection

terlalu banyak untuk dikafarahkan. oh!

betullah, 2 nikmat yangs sering dilupakan oleh manusia ialah KESIHATAN dan WAKTU LAPANG

we always look them separately, but im pretty sure that they always come together.

bila tiada kesihatan, ada waktu lapang pun tak berguna. :(

semalam aku sudah mengabsentkan diri. hari ni aku cuba datang ke kelas. dalam OT, sudah tak larat berdiri walaupun operation yang dilakukan menarik minat aku. alahai ruginya.

di tengah hari, terpaksa pulang, takmahu mentransmit infection kepada patient dan orang sekeliling. severe nose block that i think if you do cold spatula test, there will be absence of fogging on both sides.

cetrizine dan cough syrups telah ditelan beberapa kali. moga kali ini tuhan menerima ikhtiyarku ini sebagai satu kesembuhan. amin. amin.

p/s: i really need to recover quickly. too much assignments to be completed that i initially intent to do them at very last minute. bad bad.

sekarang rasain akibat kau tak hargai nikmat masa lapang. aduh!

saya busy

2011-12-06T09:23:00.006+08:00

wow it really has been a while. ffuhh.

talking about it, i almost finish with my short postings

new system is tiring but whole lot of fun. hihi

not having so much time, so here some of the things i did during my posting..

cant remember about this

tracheostomy in ICU

mandibular fracture reconstruction

eh terupload gambar mini puree yang sodapp.

hihihi. messy OT attire

bye for nowww :)

panas

2011-10-27T16:58:00.002+08:00

tengok drama melayu skang memang boleh bikin orang marah je. *emo*

well, new semester with new system had started tetapi masih kelam kabut.

may it become smoother very soooooooonn. amin. amin.

untuk masa ni, setiap hari balik pukul 1200 which is COOL but no longer cool if this continues. -_-"

diwali was very happening this year sampai semua saki baki serbuk bahan bahan buat mercun berterabur siap dengan plastic mercun kat balcony which was weird sebab kami semua pegang mercun pun tidak apatah lagi main tapi apakan daya.

so boleh imagine pesta mercun yang tak berhenti tanpa noktah sepanjang panjang malam yang bile ko bangun pagi nak pegi kelas. 80% of the road was covered with mercun remnant. hmmm

ditambah pula dengan ke-legal-an mercun di india, mereka makin menjadi-jadi. segala jenis anak bapak, cucu, datuk nenek moyang, mercun boleh didapati seolah pc fair tapi 'mercun fair'.

so dengan harga yang berpatutan semua lapisan mercun boleh dibeli termasuk mercun yang tak pernah dilihat ataupun rare species pun bole. pendek kate ape pun bole.

sekian laporan. roger and out.

okay. balik malaysia best. k takde kaitan. okaybye

reflection

2011-10-20T10:12:00.002+08:00

i always wonder why i am so bad remembering a story.

everytime i watched any movie, any, and the next week you ask me to tell the story. i will forget.

and just now i watched a trailer of 'ayat-ayat cinta' which a friend of mine posted in facebook.

and i dont even remember a thing about the story, knowing the fact that i had watched the movie and even read the story once before

no it is not the matter of which and what type of movie i watched, just everything. and it happened all the time that keep me wonder. hmm

i thought i am not the only one that experienced it, but it seems that i am wrong. people around me can remember. hohoho

maybe because im the one who will not watch movie or read books more than once.

should i consider this as rahmah or what? hehe

anyway, just another random post of mine in Malaysia. kikiki :)

p/s: just finished watching 16episodes of korean drama 10 minutes ago. and totally forgotten the main character's name. whohoo

new system

2011-10-14T09:15:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, today ill be heading home due to some 'kepeningan' that happened in IMS.

so home will be good. i know this is sudden but i think i have to make this opportunity of holiday worth.

for your information, my dear university will suddenly starting a new system which is totally different from before.

in this system, ill be sitting in 4th year subject which consist of long posting and 3 weeks holiday in 2 years. i know this is tough but i know we are going to make it! *determine face*.so knowing there will be less holiday after this, ill take this 1 week of kepeningan as holiday. haha

well, this may conclude that my last GRAND holiday during my undergraduate ended long before when i ended my eurotrip. ohh. this may also indicates that my ~~dream~~, plan to go to egypt during this last 2 years remains as dream.

well, the 2 years gonna be real fast as we dont really have a holiday gap between 4years and 5th years. so yeah.. 2 continuous years of hardwork.

what is more important is we are all will start as fresh as baby from womb after this. ~~hyperbole~~

dear father,

when i see the hectic schedule ill go through after this, that most of the time we'll have to study by ourselves at the corner of the hospital which make it impossible if ive to carry my thick load book to the clinics, can i request a device that can read books, pretty please. *hint*. im very sure that will be the most beneficial, educational thing you ever give to me. and im pretty sure its a good investment too.. pretty please.

well, like yesterday when Dr I was suddenly forgotten about one of the drugs in bedside teaching, my friends immediately open up the i book (literally) and found the answer. and Dr I said: this technology really helps huh?'

*imagine i bring harrison to school and finding the answer (this is not literally), omg.*

dear father,

i really hope that you'll read this though the probability will be only 50% (kan? read or not read.. haha.. see how noob i am in math)

okaybye.

#random

egois

2011-10-05T22:39:00.003+08:00

previous post sangat berbaur emo. lololol

pastu konon malu nak cover pakai post baru. elelele

and believe it or not im still emo.

okbye

this is to prevent bursting out of emotion in public. haha. im the one who think that emotion should not really told in public. esp in words because once it is read people start making assumption and there comes fitnah (bila syaitan merasuk).

kan? kan?

kalau tak caye... ape yang korang buat skang kan. mesti assume aku ade problem dengan orang kan? tu yang emo. padahal tak. dan ini adalah konflik diri yang dah lama tak emo. haha.

tak yah cakap orang. aku sendiri adalah orang yang kuat sangat buat assumption. kalau dah hobi suka berfikir. lolol

bende ni tak elok sebab sebenarnye inilah yang kite panggil su'u zhon. tingkat pertama dalam membina ukhwah dah FAIL badly. T_T

huhu.

*********

well well.. tadi pegi library kejap. memang kejap pun. sebab rasa macam 2 jam je kot kat library. haha. ni sume salah tido berlebihan sampai bile lari kat rumah orang pun bole tidur kat rumah orang. pastu terasa begitu bengang dan terus bersiap ke library. duduk 2 jam. habis satu chapter baru balik. ceh padahal baru satu chapter.

padahal ade lagi banyakk chapter tak baca lagi. oh itu cerita lain

ceritanya adalah dapat la tengok suasana raya diorang ni on the way to school. and since dah cakap nak upload gambar ada 2 keping gamba je amik. ini pun dalam bangunan. haha

kenapa 2 keping?

1. sebab on the way nak pegi sekolah bawak motor kot, tahap yang tak berhenti pun sebab mana ada traffic light nak pegi kolej. so tak kuasa la kan nak berhenti tepi jalan just capture picture by my noob phone.

2. kat dalam hospital next to my college tu banyak gile decoration yang penuh warna warni. tapi memang lagi menyegankan untuk sekali lagi saya keluarkan phone saya yang noob ni untuk amik gamba. banyak kot orang

So jadila dua keping gamba depan pintu masuk kolej yang memang confirm takde orang kecuali pak guard. so jadila. walaupun deco kat kolej tak bape nak lawa.

seriusly lawa kot deco kat tempat lain. the best thing about celeb in india is they will draw something yang colourful dekat entrance floor setiap building gune macam pasir warna warni tu. lawa kot. lagi besar building lagi besar lukisan and lagi lawa. rasa nak pijak-pijak je. wakaka

dasar manusia yang ada naluri destructive.

kesian kat librarian kolej tadi, die pakai sari cantik kot pegi kolej, tapi tak dapat celebrate. haha. eh tergelak. and me just being nice asked:

'what celebration do you have today?'

she said: 'oh we have ^&%^& puja'

actually i only heard the 'puja' word. the rest i guess its local language so i couldnt catch up.

anywhooo

ill call this celebration 'perayaan pokok pisang'

since pokok pisang digunakan secara besar besaran. wonder jugak mane datang pokok2 pisang banyak2 ni. tak penah nampak pun pokok pisang ditanam besar besaran kat bangalore ni.

yang penting kitorang dapat cuti. yeay for that. dan yang lebih penting dapat cuti dua hari. DOUBLE YEAY!

so me as usual being curious why 2 days? bukan senang india nak bagi cuti lama sikit. eh lama ke. yang penting masuk final year cuti kite jadi 5 minggu je untuk 2 tahun. say whatt? eh ini cerita lain

i asked the librarian again: so tomorrow what will you have?

and she said: oh tomorrrow library close.

i was like okay tak jawab soalan and left. hahaha

so thats all kot. banyak lagi nak baca.

roger and out.

eh eh ade gamba.

yang ni depan kolej

yang bawah ni kat hospital sebelah kolej.

mesti nak cakap alahai hambanye gambar but this is only to highlight the pokok pisang. kite tengok esok ade ape plak ekkk

hai

2011-10-04T18:19:00.003+08:00

wah dah berbulan tak update eh. yeke? this will be short/ jangan baca.

nak cakap jugak tapi tak tau kat mana dan siapa.

aaaaaaaa.... susah gile soalan tadi. ohohohohoh. aku sorang je ek yg tak dapat jawab!!

this is what happen when u make a promise sesame member takkan discuss pasal exam after exam. buat macam tak tahu. hahaha. pastu clueless sorg2.

cakap kat fb/twitter/etc rasa serba tak kene sebab malas nak dengar org cakap 'alahh poyo la kau'

sometimes i really hate that. or maybe 'ALL THE TIMES'. so bile aku tak suke orang buat, aku takkan buat kat orang.

member bile datang cakap soalan susah aku akan diam je. aku tau aku bukan orang yang pandai comfort orang. sori friends. But i believe silence is better dari condem kawan yang dah memang down. takde sape la nak buat drama murahan 'tak-dapat-jawab-tapi-sebenarnye-dapat' la sekarang. seriusly

i may sound harsh but i mean it.

ok tutup cerita

* * *

dapat spot and all but seriously takde mood nak ingat those facts these days. dah takde mood nak study. kene amik mood ni! tak bole jadi. huhuhuhhu

dalam exam hall dok sokseksoksek selsema. sighhh

okay nak tidur sat. nasib baik india nak beraya 2 hari so dapat gap 2 hari untuk study commed

kelaka la raya diorg yang ni, sebab semua vehicle akan letak batang pisang, BATANG ye bukan daun, macam ala pintu gerbang kat depan kete diorg. including those autorickshaws. funny.

pastu nanti jam la tu, jalan yang dekat dengan temple besar yang memang jalan on the way nak pegi city. sume kete akan stop dok sibuk nak letak batang pisang . oklahh. nanti kalau kite rjin kite letak gamba.

tinggal 1 paper je lagi. berusaha!

well, sekarang nak tido jap. hehe chiow.

community service

2011-08-24T18:40:00.004+08:00

i was as usual very lazy to attend any field visit which is one of the thing we did in so-called Community Medicine. ironically i will always be among the first and sometimes the first to arrive in class. -_-"

the class started at 830 with discussion of our previous family visit of the community. yada yada yada

and then, we are going to the field by bus located in cholayanakanahalli (pergh, i made it to spell correctly! well, if you have to write the address everyday then you should spell it correctly, right?) it is 20 minutes by bus and 10 minutes by 2-wheelers. the place is actually very near to the hospital i am posted, Baptist Hospital

anyway, after that we went to the health centre there, something exactly like Klinik Desa in Malaysia. just maybe Malaysia is much preetier. teeehee

and some briefing, before the actual agenda begin...

we are around 30 people and are divided into 2 groups, visiting two different house everyday and make a report about the health condition of the family and make some clinical examination and also health education.

if you are lucky ~~or not~~ you may get a clean, comfortable house owned by those rich at the area. or else you'll get a not so cosy house that not even able to accommodate us. i mean, we cant barely fit in the house. subhanallah

from what i had been through during this 3 months visiting house to house, checking their health condition i would say that the house condition i visited from day to day is getting worse.

like yesterday, i was the first behind the lecturer to enter the house, but before i could put my feet in the house, i turned back and said 'kau masuklah dulu,err (i was trying to say something but i was at the moment holding my vomit... seriously i cant stand the SMELL)' to my friend.

i thought i had went to a 'bad' house all this while, but this one seriously i cant stand. then after i felt a little bit better i went into the house. my other friend were still outside talking to each other.

i held my breath and started talking to make it a very fast visit cause i cant stand the smell. luckily i stand next to my friend that wore a good smell perfume, so as time went by, i eventually adapting the smell slowly.

the house was rent to a 19 year old lady with a boy infant. and after that we did some examination and some advice.

well, you may thought that the condition is very bad but today the family i visited was much more saddening.

before entering the house, Dr Shantaram said: 'so we have a good subject for our study on malnutition and please do the anthropometry measurement quickly'

as i entered the house of a size that even my bedroom is bigger (this is not an insult), i can see a lady with several kids.

we started interviewing the lady. she is a 36 year old lady with 9 CHILDREN! masyaallah

NO. the number is not really a big deal. (well, i am from a big family too) but to have that much of children when your husband is a painter, is A VERY BIG DEAL indeed. according to her, her husband only gain around rs12000=rm1000

and we started asking about the children and their age and so forth. we found out that she is a christians and funny thing is almost all her childs are named as Maria. there were Maria Jennifer, Maria and also Maria Jackson. well, i almost laughed hearing this name: Maria Jackson. haha

she has one children with mental retardation and she also has a pair of boy (twin) whom one of them is having difficulty in walking apatah lagi running.

she also got this little baby, very little.. that i even saw one of her 4 year old child hold it as if the baby is a doll. and when i asked about the weight of the baby on delivery, it was 2 kg. (normal: 2.5-3.5kg). then when we actually measure the weight now, it is still 2 kg. so, there is huge problem there. the baby is not well developed!

the first child is 12/14 years old, err cant remember but she do not go to school and work with a salary of rs2000=RM170. this is sad.

and all other child develop normally but seems to have malnutrition.

i looked around the house, it was bad odor (but better than yesterday maybe because of better ventilation), the kitchen was very bad odor, on the floor, several used biscuits packaging scatterred. the bathroom was small, and there were lots of longgokan kain on one side that were unwashed clothes. oh my god i cant imagine if i'm the mother, to wash clothes without even having a washing machine with 9 children.

the hall was small, like i said before, and at one corner i can see a bicycle which tyres coated by mud. and the floor was 'sand-y'

it is of course not a favourable condition to live in especially with such a big family, but they have no choice.

then i imagine how they are sleeping at night. ohh

in this country with 2 billion population, they are actually making some measures as a family planning program here like, ideal no of child is 2 and after that all the mothers are adviced to undergo tubectomy. and that was quite an effective measures to prevent increase no of poverties in this country. and i can see most family i visited has not more than 2 children except for the previous case.

the problem is, the women here get married very early, mostly at 16 which is also against their own law where women can get married after 18. and unknowingly, this lead to many problems, like malnutrition, poverty, overcrowding, and also large no of children. this is because the father think that by letting his daughter earlier as in early marriage, that can lessen the burden of the family

it is hard to accept but community medicine do help us to view a clinical condition in different perspective when we really come to the community. maybe this is what Dr Shantaram was trying to say by 'the tip of iceberg concept'. there are lots of unseen cases in community that are not brought to the hospital.

i remember yesterday when everyone hesitate to enter the bad-smell house, Dr Lalitha called for us and said: 'please come inside, this is the community you have to face when you become a doctor'.

~~but this is surely not helpful in exam -_-"~~

to visit houses which are lived by familes with total income rata-rata less than rs10,000= rm850 will surely give an impact on you on how lucky you are in terms of everything.

and the stories i told you were what happenned in this so-called URBAN city, Bangalore.

wonder what will we get to see in those RURAL area.

and 2 words to describe what i learnt during this rotation;

BE GRATEFUL

P/S: there are actually photos i took during the visits that maybe later i'll transfer from my mobile to this lappy and maybe i'll put up some in this post as edited version. teehee. we'll see.

happy

2011-08-15T12:12:00.002+08:00

of all the bad things i said all this while, pardon me.

this Ramadhan is a fresh start, ill ~~not~~ less talk bad about you.

after all this is not my native land

i am only a 'passenger' in your land

thanks for letting me study from your good people.

to sip a little bit of knowledge from your people, thank you.

please let me study well.

please let me become a good doctor.

i would be lying if i say i dont like anything here:

i like your masala dosa, fast internet connection, the kind doctors, home delivery of almost anything (teehee)

and surprisingly your hindi language.

i have to admit that the languages that i found very beautiful to hear and nice too are hindi and of course arabic language.

they are very calming to hear

just by hearing the songs and talks. its weird though

of 3 years living in this country,

i have to admit that i have to thanks you for things i learnt from you

i learnt the meaning of honesty, patience, life and independence

yes. independence.

i am now an independent women living far away from home.

Happy 64th Independence day, India!

presenting your national anthem..

i love this song and i dont know why.

they have a very good national song, better than Malaysia i think

no im not a betrayal of Malaysia! just expressing my gratitude. ~~which rarely happens~~

so yeah...

3rd Ramadhan

2011-08-05T08:31:00.002+08:00

yes. this is my third Ramadhan in Bangalore and 3rd day of Ramadhan.

actually i dont feel like writing but to abandon my lovely blog for a long time is also not nice. hihi

so, yesterday i went to FRRO (Foreign Regional Registration Officer) in Indiranagar which i could say quite far from my home, 45 minutes by auto, may be earlier by bike.

you know, in India, students only permitted to go out from the country twice a year according to our Residential Permit which states 'double entry' on it.

so if you had went out of the country twice and want to go back for the third time, you have to undergo a very annoyingly complicated procedure to be able to go out from this country. annoyingly, yes, because as usual you have to deal with this local people.

to deal with local people is one thing, but to deal with indians local police is another freaking big thing!

you have to prepare a good documentsss,letter to FRRO, the offer letter, electric bill, house grant and so forth but most importantly prepare good physical and mental health. teehee

to cut it short, i have to ulang alik from indiranagar FRRO office and Jalahalli Police Station twice yesterday and burnt the whole day class just because my police report was not mentioning my flat no ONLY. yes the 'E301' word only. but luckily its Ramadhan so my patience threshold was quite high.

if i have to count the no of auto we were riding yesterday, its NINE! auto broke down in the middle of the road, auto driver who didnt know the place but still want to send that we had to take another auto to go to the destination, auto with cheating-meter, annoying autodriver who want to charge more just because he has to make far u-turn if he sent you there -_-, and also the time when we had to walk home just because no auto was passing at the isolated police station.

not to mention to brought a police officer to your house to check your house and interviewing your neighborhood to confirm that you actually living in the house and also brought the officer back to the police station only to know that the police report is not accepted and you have to go back to the very far place.

and what make u even upset that you still cant proceed to final procedure just because the so called inspector who RAREly or should i say VERY RAREly exist in his big office, and you cant even get his sign for the report to be brought back to the FRRO office in Indiranagar as one of the documents to get a permit.

and bad news, he'll be off for another three days starting today, which will delay the completion. ahh

this process is very challenging to your iman and dont be shock to see that even matsalleh cry for this painful thing. haha. ~~well, some of my friends too~~

after all, these are all the procedure that you have to undergo if you want to make the so called EXIT PERMIT.

So dear family, please be grateful to see me home cause i have to undergo this painful procedure to be able to make it. T_T

p/s: we were scolded for making noise in the police station when we were talking about food for iftar. haha. scary i told youuu

suddenly i remember when i was doing my first Residential Permit in my 1st year, we were warned not to talk, laugh or even smile in the police station. funny huh? well, this is incredible india. hihi

Break

2011-07-21T11:42:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum

how are you? how are your preparations for Ramadhan?

Ramadhan is approaching us. hope we all will benefit and can doubletriple our amal in this Ramadhan

especially for me and my batch, this Ramadhan is the first time we'll be ~~totally~~ free from examination. okay maybe just some small test like end posting etc. but Alhamdulillah no big exam coming up. hehe. some even planning to make mini Bazaar Ramadhan to gain some business profit. but anywhooo..... see you in Terawih!

oh and i will only fly home at the last day Ramadhan itself, so i guess my full Ramadhan will be in Bangalore which is also not bad, except for no bazar Ramadhan. hehe

when i think it over and over again, we actually can focus even more on ibadah when we are away from home.

i remember someone said that: 'you all should be grateful to be able to study abroad, you will have less other distraction like kenduri kawin sedara la nak kene balik, kucing beranak nak kene balik that someone who is in Malaysia would have to attend just because they are in Malaysia. you can focus on study and excel'

well, it is true in some other way.

so, yeah i guess my Lord is giving me a break from hectic classes all this while today. hehe. i caught in fever and severe headache and flu. ohh.

so here i am, typing this entry to fill in my free time in this cool break. eheheh

now, i am posted in OnG department which we call OBG department in India. this was my 4th posting during my clinical year in Bangalore and it was ok. i think i can call this department as department of pain as ALL the patient i met here were all in pain. SEVERE PAIN.

i guess the only thing i like during my posting here is, i was able to play with newborn baby. hehe. well that explains the photos i uploaded below. besides it is kinda inappropriate pulak kan nak amik gambar women in labor.

they were so adorable! other than that, hmmm.

in india, most of the consultants here are women which is good. but i heard its the other way round in Malaysia. we really in need of women obstetricians to handle women's cases.

but, i think one of the reason less women involve in this field nowadays because.. heck it is tiring! physically and emotionally torturing... that is the major complaint i heard from seniors who are doing their clerkship in this department. and i heard it from most of the houseman in Malaysia.

with the painful shouting and emergency and fierce doctor... hmm. i remember one day, i watched a doctor had to handle 4 deliveries continuously in 2+ hours. and at the 4th delivery she told her colleague that it was actually the 7th one. oh my god, that were tiring!

so, i guess men are better coping with stress.

hm what should i do with this free time. takkan tido sahaja sungguh tak produktif. i just cant remember the last time i got my day off during weekdays that i have no idea what to do. :B JK

dasar budak skema.

ok. till then. love you all my sisters in islam. :)

Ulat buku

2011-07-10T19:41:00.004+08:00

oh done with examss. first IA. literally. cause suddenly this MOST FAVOURITE DEPARTMENT of all wants to make practical exam. so mine is on tuesday. for the time being, lets just forget about it. hmmmmm

lepas exam bende wajib buat. download dan tengok movie. so i was about to change the habit to reading books instead. but of course, me just being typical me, memang sangat pemalas baca buku. and to be frank, the last book i read was should i say.... okay i cant remember. but trust me it'll be at least year apart (this u have to exclude medical books of course, that one i am forced to read. hehe)

then i remember reading diary of a wimpy kid from ayam last month or two months back. okay that was so coincidence. im quite amazed of how diligent ayam reading those books not to mention the laughs muahaha. ~~soryy ayam~~, well that, actually made me reading the book, i always like something with comedy in it.haha. but it was only A book. it was quite a light reading i would say, knowing the size of the font they used and yeah with the cartoons drawn on pages, so i shouldnt consider this as a reading should i? haha

nevertheless, to read something called novel, a good one, that was years ago. the conclusion is, im not a bookworm (true and sad story) and this is totally not good, and i am going to fix this, I HAVE TO FIX THIS! *determine face*

as a start, after this particular exam, one night, i borrowed again one of ayam's novel hoping i could finish it. then i remember my friend told me to watch a documentary about federal fraud or something and its only 8 (still early), so i did. there were 5 parts of the documentary on youtube. i watched 2 of them and they were all about the historical info yada yada and then i dozed off!! then i know i shouldnt watch that. cause u know the tiredness you get when you just finished your exam, and you suddenly want to watch some serious stuff? are you kidding yourself? hahaha. ironically, it was actually a good documentary that i actually finished watching it when i was well awake at 3 am in the morning. fresh start huh? LOL

the thing is, saya tak bace novel yang pinjam tu. it is still lay nicely at my sidebed tabble enough mumbling. -_-"

i always envy my friend whose hobby is reading books that he/she was able to go to the bookshop, buy lotsa book (this one i already good at), but most importantly finishing those thick booksss

i actually end up downloading the movies related to any books and watch it. easy and save time (seriously save your time, cause reading book gonna take my time even more). like i did just now, and now i had finished watching diary of a wimpy kid, both movies not to mention the Harry Potter movies, all seven movies that i watched during my exam week.

so LITERALLY, i had finished 'reading' 8 1/2 books. in one week.

1/2, because harry potter the deathly hollow PART 2 will only be in cinema on next week.

so tell me how readings gonna beat this?

ohiwishicouldsleeprightnow!

2011-07-05T22:53:00.003+08:00

pardon me for the difficulty. i mean, on reading the title

so now i have just 5 minutes to write before continue my study at 840.

4 words: oh im so sleepy!

but 'glaucoma' waiting for me. huwa

so bye.

err.. btw, this is pre-ophtalmology exam syndrome. wish me luck tomorrow!

Random

2011-06-26T13:16:00.004+08:00

p/s: jangan baca. jangan baca kalau anda rasa tak banyak masa sebab seriusly tak de pape

'oh these times are hard.. yeah they're making us crazy, dont give up on me baby'

yeah. that was me, humming the last bit of some random song. haha

so, now Bangalore is raining like forever, and to make it worst, is that yesterday we all had blackout from 430-11 pm..... so long ok.

as for me, it was a very good opportunity to sleep like no tomorrow. haha

sejuk sangattt!

pastu tak study dan menyesal. padan muka sendiri.

actually, the generator was working half the way, and suddenly lampu kalimantang berkelip2 sakit mata.. pastu terus ter off dan kegelapan bermula.

SURGERY EXAM

so two days back, i was having a surgery exam and it was the longest i ever had.

spent almost one hour with my dearly doctor presenting case and answering question which should i say VERY PRACTICAL one-lah. in the end, i got very tired and answered lazily.

but, i think the doctor was the one with keras hati ke ape, keep asking question. eventhough i shamelessly gave so many hints to stop the session like when there was 2 seconds silence after i answered a question, i shamelessly said: 'oh thank you sir' and stood up. but he cold heartedly said: ' no, its not over'

and he continued for another 15 minutes -_-"

whett..

the exam was so long that before i masuk tak hujan, pastu hujan, pastu hujan dah stop and i was still there. omygod

and as expected i was the last one who left the OPD. sangat tak best perasaan itu.

and to make it really tak best was that when i was riding on my cute scooter on the way back to my resident, i was riding behind this two-wheeler and he went into some lopak air (ni memang lopak tak tipu punye and bukan becak). that whoooooosh. you can imagine what happen la kan after that. i was wearing my white coat and it was all covered with the splash of lopak air. not to mention my tudung also and seluar slack yang konon pakai bajet formal for exam. haih.

what a day. and now i understand the feeling bile kene kat diri sendiri. sungguh sadis dan memalukan.

pastu stop je kat traffic light cepat2 bukak white coat simpan. taknak la orang tengok2 'alahai siannye budak ni kan'

so end of story.

next clinical posting will be OnG which i dont really like that much but yeah have to study also. so no comment.

oh ya. dengan mengabaikan budak-budak lain dan memfokuskan pada seorang dr yang stand in the middle.

beliau tu Urologist surgeon in my hospital.

motif?

die tu Dr fav saye. hikhikhik. okbye.

cystectomy

2011-06-21T22:09:00.004+08:00

sudah lama tidak menulis dek kesibukan melanda.

ni pun nak exam lagi seminggu.

end posting exam surgery this weekend lagi. moga dipermudahkan.

today, i was able to see cystectomy done by Dr Ajay and Dr Arun Kamat at Baptist hospital. it was a very long one. -_-". as soon as i saw the ureter attached, i backed off and ran. ran. hahaha

so, i came into the OT in the middle of the operation which i initially didnt intend to join. haha. too lazy to change i guess.

but suddenly when Habi said that there was Dr Arun, i just went with him and Mahir.

anyway, as soon as i entered the OT, i was shocked to see the bladder, ovary and uterus was being removed from the abdomen. very radical, i said.

luckily my dear friend athira had arrived there earlier so she said that it was the case of bladder cancer.

so, im quite amazed to see how complicated this operation was, as 2 consultant were handling it (usually only one). and i got to see the process clearly this time. maybe because there were only 4 of us. so, you know..

and you might think i am poyo or what, but i think good height also help me during the surgery. imagine, all the surgeon were very tall and the table was adjusted to their height, so you might not be able to see it clearly if you are 'underheight'. in addition, you'll be standing behind them so how la you can see if they are taller than you. hahahaha.

saja nak mengada cerita benda lain pulak kan.

so that's all for today.

got so many exam and books to be worried and studied. chiaw.

Alhamdulillah

2011-06-09T22:27:00.004+08:00

we just dont bother to say Alhamdulillah until we saw someone that's more ungrateful than we are.
that is what i learnt today.

posting today was tiring. not that i did so many things, its actually the other way round. -_-"
oh got home at 530, too tired. all because of traffic jam. 15 minutes journey hospital-home took us 45 minutes instead. ~~tambahan pula hari ni naik kereta, lagi lama~~ ohhh.

seeing patients everyday made me immune to the 'pity-ness' feeling. i know its not good. just that i've getting immune to see sick people.

not until you realise that someone you are seeing is someone you close to. you know. with so much similarity. and yet..

then until you know the meaning of being grateful. :)

oh anyhow, a little update on Gokula. the place where i've been living all this while.
there's gonna be a new restaurant opening starting TODAY in our neighbourhood. and its a mix of Malaysian and Korean cuisine.

sounds interesting? yes it is.
thats why me and my classmates gonna try it out tomorrow itself. haha. :D

HOLIDAY
studying in India also taught us to value our very little holiday. really.
pathetic

and usually people will start planning what they'll do in their holiday, like VERY WELL PLANNED-lah
for example for my March 2012 holiday, people already DONE planning their place of vacation or ATLEAST choosing a place to go. i know, its overr.

and for me, if somebody asked me where i'll go for the holiday. i will usually said:
' aku nak balik rumah la. dah lama tak cuti lama kat umah'

and as much as i hate to say this. yes, my longest cuti kat rumah since i study in india was during my end 1st MBBS holiday which was 4 weeks?

haha. that means all this while i bising-bising balik rumah pun only for a week paling lama.

now that's why you know why i want to go home this march holiday.err.. i mean next year. lama kot tak balik rumah. kampung pun dah tak balik almost 3 years. balik rumah pun selalu ada event je, like raya or kenduri kahwin. no time to menghubung silaturrahim.

and other reason why i wanna go home is that I OSO DONT HAVE MONEY TO TRAVEL. waaaa.

i would lie if i said i REALLY dont have money to travel. i mean come on lah. i still have time to save money for any vacation i wish to go on that particular time, but the thing is, if i do that, that means i will have no saving for my not-so-guarantee future after graduation.

haha. sounds so mature. but really. without realising it, this september i'll become 4th year medical student ~~woot woot~~, considering i pass my MBBS exam this year la. ~~ok. sounds so turn off.~~

and by looking at my saving right now, i have no idea what i can buy with the money. hahaha

so start saving for future. wuuuu

BUT

~~but lagi, nak buat bende baik ade je but~~

as much as i hate to say this tooo, I MISS TRAVELLING. ni semua salah tengok balik gambar-gambar memori silam.

ohh, i miss those hard time, backpacking, those good time too.

waaa nak travel.

which place?

thinking of the place, i had enough nonsense, i mean not nonsense but enough-lah. not so big fan of Korea and other place, though intend to go oso when have money.

and right now, if i have to choose a place to visit, it will definitely be:

Misr/ Egypt, the land of anbiya'. :)

p/s: i just realise how random my post is. pardon me. hihihi

PERMISI

2011-05-30T19:52:00.005+08:00

I had a very productive weekend recently by attending PERMISI or Perhimpunan Mahasiswa Islam Seluruh India

and yes. as the name suggested, it was attended by students from all over India. MasyaAllah. From this program, I got to know place like Davengere, Karat, Kolar,Krishna and their existance in this country :B. and yes Manipal and Mangalore too.

At first, i honestly hesitate to attend since i RARELY get to rest during weekend. we have so many programs recently that kept me busy.

But Alhamdulillah, my weekend was well spent! and it worth all my time.

i learnt a lot of things. but one thing that pulled out my interest is when he talked about 'ain
i honestly had never heard about it before. i mean the fact behind it.

it made me remember one documentary i watched in the plane during my return trip from paris to bangalore just before i landed since i still had about 10 minutes to watch something short. so i choose documentary. haha. taknak buang masa konon. padahal jakun.

it was about India. something like 'things you should know about India'
there were about other countries too, but since i live in india, i am so curious to know the what you should and should not do in india. ~~now i realised how isolated i am from the local people. been living here almost 3 years and never learn about their culture. well, that's bad~~

so, yeah. one of them was that we should never praise or say indian's baby cute or beautiful or seangkatan dengannya. in other words, never say something that is technically adjective to their babies. haha. eventhough its a nice one. because its a taboo for them. they said that it will bring bad luck for them. at first i just laughed at how ridiculous that was. how can we bring bad luck by even saying good things about them. superstitious!

not until i know that it is ALSO practised in my native land by my native people (Malay) -_-"
duhh

anyway, what made me more surprised that it is TRUE that it can really bring bad luck to that particular person that was being praised! how irony
and this is also evident by hadis Rasulullah whereby one if the sahabah got sick after he was praised by a person. i cant really remember the 'matan' of the hadis but the hadith is hadith sohih. and if you want to know more just google it!

and to treat this, the person who was the 'culprit' should take bath and the water is given to his/her 'victim'.

and this happened just because he/she did not say 'barakallah' or 'masyaAllah' after his/her praise.

so take note people! accompany your praise with a praise to Allah too.

actually the topic was brought to discussion when we were discussing about sihir.

and yeah, i got to know about jampi. what not and what is. sungguh ilmiah.

my conclusion to the program was AWESOMENESS.

and did i said about who's the speaker?

its Dr MAZA.

really grateful to meet him in person. (literally)

and i know i made my friends annoyed dan diorang cakap aku over by saying this:

'aku nak amik gamba dengan die lah. and aku kalau jadi LELAKI lah, aku berkepit je dengan DrMAZA nih. kalau boleh aku nak die kenal nama aku. bukan senang to meet him in person'

hahaha. over kan? i know. tapi mana taknya, budak laki boleh buat biase je. nilah masanya nak kenal orang yang berilmu. :)

so i did made what i'd said.

one of them actually

only it was done bijamaah :)

p/s: just got a good news~~for me~~.!
there will be holiday during this raya! yippie. bole balik!
padahal dah beli tiket dah even tak tahu ade cuti ke tak. haha

and yes. i am so happy. ^^

a story

2011-05-25T08:54:00.003+08:00

i woke up too early this morning since i had slept as early as 715 yesterday.
now you know why i missed hindi class. hehehe

it is raining outside. wondering how am i gonna go to the class today.

speaking of story to be told, yesterday was just as usual as the days before
just that i felt so hot in the hospital waiting for the paediatrics doctor in the PICU
so i went to the ICU just next to it, to get real airconditioned place. pathetic, i know

but that was not the only thing i did.
i remembered Dr Ajay *ahem* asked us to see ABG chart in the ICU after he taught about acid-base balance
he told that we could learn a lot by looking at the ABG report itself. the ABG report actually changes everyday depends on the improvement of the patient.
he actually did told us to go there on his 1st class itself. but yesterday, as he asked : 'who did check the ABG chart in the ICU?'

Nobody respond. and i know he was upset. so i went. hehehehhe

anyhow.
as i entered the ICU i randomly picked any bed/patient. i choose a young lady who was unconscious and looked upon his chart.
luckily the report was on the front page of the chart. so i went through the chart.
we (me and athira) tried to study the chart but i was rather curious to know why such a young lady was in the ICU.

i searched for a blue sheet inside the chart where the history was written and read it

Age: 24 years old

Chief Complaint:
the patient was allegedly consume rat poison....

we stopped reading and closed the chart and look at each other shaking our head. ish3

bunuh diri. no wonder so young.
i suddenly remembered what ayam (my friend) said when she was posted in casualty last week.
she said that her doctor said that whoever consume rat poison will die eventually. it is just the matter of time. sooner or later they will die.

and i was suprised to know that most of the cases that were brought to the casualty were suicidal attempt cases

i have no pity for such person. seriously. it is their choice. they choose to kill themselves but failed and now is it fair for the family to pay for the cost? you know that ICU ward will cost more. so you want to kill yourself, make sure it is not a failure!

as i left the patient, i saw one of her relatives went to her bed. pity him.

i intended to stay longer so i looked around the ICU and i said:
'all of the patient in the ICU are unconscious, you see. oh, there is one conscious.'

then i realised that there was a body covered with blanket fully. as soon as i see the body i know that he/she was dead. no wonder i saw so many people in the family discussing room.

i wondered how the doctors gonna tell the relatives.

so, as the social workers were trying to move out the dead body from the ICU, we tried to follow them just being curious as always, then i realised that i was in the middle of class and went back to the PICU. still no doctor showed up, i went to the ward upstairs, heard that there was a case of nephritic syndrome in the ward....

oh i think its time for school.

to be continued....

aktiviti

2011-05-21T17:12:00.003+08:00

oh bila cuti tiba mesti sume orang dah pakat-pakat nak pegi sana-sini.

oh aku pun tak ketinggalan jugak

tapi....
jauh di lubuk hati aku sebenarnya aku lebih suka buat aktiviti lasak daripada sightseeing
best woh

ape?
macam tak kene kan
aku tau aku memang bukan jenis suka bersukan ke apa
masuk pertandingan pun jauh sekali.

orang sibuk bersukan aku sebok makan. kah kah kah
tapi still tak gemok. so takpe dimaafkan
ek eleh poyo plak

tapi ini lain.
jeles gile tengok orang lain dapat buat
bila cakap dengan kawan-kawan sorang pun tak minat
hampeh
padahal ko sebenarnye tak betau directly tapi bagi hint pastu bajet orang paham
and kalau ade orang organize program ke mesti involve budak laki je
tak kan nak join
tak ke kurang manis di situ

takkan nak pegi sorang-sorang. pathetic sangat tuh.
aaaaaaaaaaaaa
nak pegi
nak pegi

setakat ni dua je bende aku nak buat:

1.

2.

bende-bende macam ni best buat dalam 5-6 orang. ramai sangat tak best. sikit sangat pun tak best.

ramai tak best sebab malas tunggu turn. hahahah.

so anyone with the same interest or organizing related activities, do contact me.
pretty please...

i would love to join. heheheh

at the same time im looking for someone (female) with the same interest ~~and money. haha coz these activities will definitely cost you some amount of money.~~

just a hope

peace!

semalam

2011-05-08T14:59:00.004+08:00

semalam baru sahaja habis exam. bosan kan. exam jeeeeeeee
anyway semalam juga demi meraikan kejayaan kami habis exam (perlu ke) kami dengan gembiranya buat makan-makan
MY FAVOURITE
it was BBQ kind of makan-makan
hehehehe
here's a glimpse of what happened yesterday.

susahpayah dihargai... DARI SIANG.......

SAMPAI KE MALAM i_i

thanks to guys yang start masak pasang bara api segala since 4pm sampai pkl 8.
yang pegi beli barang sume.
yang bersusah payah marinate, rebus semua eventhough esok exam medicine. teehee
thanks to ibah for the house
iwa for the oreo ball and movies.hehe
kak zai and thira for the bihum
semua sedappp
especially rib stick yum yum
memang terangkatlah! ~~dasar penggemar daging. sila diam~~

hope sume lulus.
seriously thank you. :)

kadang saya rasa pelik.
budak lelaki memang suka ber bbq ek?
just wondering. haha

ape lagi ye. okay next posting paeds. bye.
kids, you better do well!!

Official

2011-04-21T19:10:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

sambil-sambil tunggu asar, kite banyak mase pulakkan. so senang je jari-jemari ni nak mengupdate.
masuk 3rd phase ni banyak pulak mase kan. alhamdulillah
standard la awal-awal kan. banyak je masa. tengok time nak dekat exam. haru

Alhamdulillah. berjaya melangkah ke third phase dengan jayanya.
semalam baru 'berjaya' amik result.
dengan titisan air mata tau. hish
TAK
bukan terharu ke ape tapi sakit hati punye pasal.
~~biaselah. PMS~~

dan tadi dengan penuh semangatnye pergi jumpe lecturer 2nd phase
awkward la rasa nak say thanks with nothing in hands
tapi sampai bile. bukan selalu ke kolej.
kalau kat malaysia. bukan main kalau jumpe cikgu peluk2 bagai. tapi kat sini rasa janggal gile
i met the lecturers and said: thanks sir/madam for everything. LEPAS TU?
dah tak tau nak buat ape. and they were very nice
i still remember what Dr Ramesh said:

"Why you all are thanking me. its all your effort. you are the one who studied. hahaha. i wish u all the best in your study. you all should score distinction till your final year because that is very important. with distinction, you all can make your postgraduate in UK. you all should do your post graduate in UK!
dont meet me now. meet me when you have distinction at your final year. then i can advice you on how you can do your postgraduate. if you want to do in India, we also have very good college in postgraduate studies. i can recommend some. here, we have many things to study because we have such a big population. or maybe China. they also have such a big population. its good for studies. blablabalaba'

oh thank you sir. so thoughtful of you.

sekarang most of the class will be in the hospital

3rd phase is a clinical year
it will be divided into 2 parts: part 1 and 2
and each of the part is 1 year.

so i am now in 3rd phase part 1 .
the part 2 will be my FINAL YEAR! wewiit. one year to go.
and we have to undergo another 6 months of internship before graduating.

time flies so fast. i dont even aware that i've been in India for almost 3 years.
with all the experience i got here, this place surely got place in my heart UNCONSCIOUSLY. HAHAHAH
the experiences i got were priceless that we got stories that not everyone will experience.

errr..sorry i dont even aware of what i said before
haha

back to the story.
millions of thanks to family, lecturers, friends and everyone for what i'd achieve.
i cant do this without your support. seriously
and special thank to my Creator, Allah the almighty
He's the greatest contributor.

okay i got chicken to be cooked!
peace. :)

MY 2nd PHASE END TRIP :)

2011-04-17T15:41:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum dear family and friends.

i'm back from my 3 weeks awesome euro and uk trip!
it has been 2 days but i'm very busy with my new class schedule that i dont even have time to take my official slip results yet.
but knowing that i have passed my 2nd phase MBBS examination have already made me felt so grateful. Alhamdulillah.

EURO TRIP

meeting new friends, culture and learning new language are what i can gain from my jaulah.
it was indeed tiring considering quite number of places we had been treasuring. some of them were not really in plan. but they were awesome
and the most awaiting time during the trip was of course to try new food. :)
after all Malaysian cuisine is always the best. (that we had to spend euros and pounds to get them. haha)

okay let me list in the places we had visited during my 3 weeks (or more) vacation

1. germany (munich, deggendorf, stuttgart, fussen)
of all, the must visited place is of course fussen with its very beautiful castle that gave inspiration to Disney Production to design their castle. subhanallah

2. France. (Paris and Nice) Paris- this place was indeed beautiful. for those who love beautiful modern building, i found this place was very worth treasured

Nice- a very beautiful beach and city. (we had a very tragic history here. haha)

3. Italy (Rome, Florence, Pisa and Venice)
Of all places in this country i like Rome the most for its beautiful historical building and of course food. 3 things u shud try in Italy (pasta, pizza and gelato ice cream) yummy.
minus point is the dirty city and train station with quite a number of people visiting. the most visited place i think considering the number of tourist i met there was very huge.

4. Czech Republic (Prague, Hradec Kralove and Olomouc)
PRAGUE IS THE MUST VISIT PLACE I TELL U!! a very beautiful city. enough said.
Malaysian students in Czech were also very helpful and nice. hehehbte

5. Netherland (Amsterdam)
due to technical problem we faced, we only managed to treasure the city of amsterdam. but it was indeed a happening and nice city to visit. really. after being so upset with the problem, we managed to meet a very nice and helpful Malaysian on a tram that offered her niece to be our unofficial tour guide there. haha. thanks to her!

6. UK (Edinburgh, Leeds, Manchester, and London)
Scotland is always my favourite country to visit! and to be honest during the whole trip i was so eager to go to scotland. and it was VERY AWESOME. EVERYONE SHUD GO TO EDINBURGH. well, another caps lock to stress on how much i love the city. and then, yeah. London. an entertaining city. i love this city too. hehe.

well, since im not a football crazy or fan, going to manchester was only a casual visit. haha. but it was interesting stadium tour. what an experience!

7. DUBLIN

Dublin is indeed a city to study. enough said. haha

Okay lets make a Top 3 most lovely place (for me) that i think you all shud visit:
1. EDINBURGH (oh, you win my heart, babeh)
2. PRAGUE (just go there and you'll know why :)
3. AMSTERDAM (actually i was about to say london, but you know that place is even a common people would go-lah, if they come to negara orang putih. so, amsterdam is coool!
Paris pon okay gak. erkk. ape nii. dah berbelah bahagi. hahaha

Well, i think that's all for now. i dont want to elaborate more. what i can say is:

LETS GET BACK TO STUDAYYYYY!

hehe.. before that lets take a peek of 'what happened in Europe', with us there...

Malaysian cuisine in Edinburgh. Heaven-lah!

Amsterdam.

Rome

Olomouc, Czech

London

Hradec Kralove, Czech. with sisters. :)

Venice, Italy

In front of uni building with MSU peeps at Hradec Kralove

Nice, France

Paris. France

Manchester, UK

start :)

2011-03-17T10:57:00.004+08:00

Now that exam is totally over,

the most awaiting time has comes,

the high-cost journey begins,

3 weeks of a long journey,

and 6 backpackers,

something i never do before,

excited yet nervous,

its TONIGHT.

O Allah,

bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

subhanallazi sahhorolana haza wama kunna lahu mukrinin, wa inna ila rabbina lamunqalibun

PLEASE PRAY FOR OUR SAFETY! :)

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finally

2011-03-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

final 2nd Professional examination (theory) is finally over.

with hardworks and lack of sleep

seriously.

i had never been this hardworking and im kinda proud of myself. (take this in a good way)

though i am not a regular-study person,

started studies only two weeks before exam and with this kind of long exam.

i am exhausted

it has been 1 month of continuos hardwork

woke up and go to the library, stayed back after exam.

woke up early during exam, (during exam only la)

i feel so skema. haha

so now it is the time for tawakal to play it role.

after all we had tried our best though not to our satisfaction.

but, typical human. never content

bismillahitawakkaltualallah

just to make a note to myself:

today 8th March 2011, i am frustrated with my pharmacology exam. :(

drugs kill.

aku ingin syahid!

2011-03-04T20:13:00.003+08:00

wah randomnya tajuk kan.

di petang-petang ni keinginanan nak tidur tapi biasala lately susah sangat nak tido. nak start tido je dah habis sejam. sangat membazir masa.

dan disebabkan masa terlalu emas sekarang, terus stop tido. ahh membazir masa. baik pegi baca buku. hehehehe

sindrom tak dapat tidur ni menjadi-jadi lately. banyak sangat berfikir mungkin. haha

biarlah orang nak cakap apa. tapi inilah final. last time pun nak struggle. lepas ni dah tak jumpa dah subjek-subjek ni. will be missing my lecturers a lot. saya sangat suka lecturer second phase.

rasa lebih rapat mungkin sebab second phase ni lama 1.5 tahun. dan diorang ajar sangat best.

so bila dah rasa cani rasa macam nak bagi hadiah lah. tapi tak tahu nak bagi apa. im thinking of manisan tapi kat sini ada beribu manisan. mana satu nak bagi. aku sendiri pun tak penah rasa satu. so nak bagi yang sedap ikut hati pun tak dapat. ape ek nak bagi?

cakap pasal makanan teringat time hari sukan. time tu semua orang bukak booth nak meniaga konon. pastu letak harga pergh pergh. tapi sebab barang malaysia. layann. sini kalau jual karipap pun laku. semua jual laku. tinggal rajin tak rajin je. hehe. oh balik pada cerita, kitorang ni memang dasar karnivor mestilah tak sah tak de daging atau ayam dan sebagainya. dan tiba-tiba lecturer tanya 'where can i get food for vegetarian?' dekat aku. terkedu jap. tak pernah terfikir nak masak vege. hahaha

haha. nasib baik ade orang jual kuih muih. so boleh la dijadikan cadangan. tapi kuih malaysia kan.. bajet diorang makan. ala macam kite la. cube ko bagi pakoda, vada dengan karipap. mestilah karipap goreng amatur kite pilih. tapi pakoda pon sodap jugak. haha

oh sudah lari tajuk. mana ye. ha cakap pasal tidur. susah sangat nak tidur sekarang sebab banyak fikir kot. padahal dah try nak concentrate dah nak tido. tapi still susah. last-last golek-golek je atas katil cukup syarat merehatkan badan.

dan dipetang ni lepas balik dari exam forensic tadi memang dah set dah mission nak tido. mana bole jadi tido tak cukup dah 5 hari. ahem. tido cukup saya adalah 7 jam. sekian. tapi lepas layan movie 'burke and hare' (forensic gile movie. ingat tak burking? die yang invent burking type of asphyxial death.) tapi tetap tak boleh tido.

saya terfikir.

dalam kesibukan kita sibuk bersedia nak exam ape semua ni. punyela pulun. buat itu ini. sedar tak kite sebenarnye kite ada satu lagi exam yang lagi besar dekat akhirat. perrsediaan kite hanya ala kadar. takut saya fikir nak menghadap tuhan dengan amalan rupa sekarang.

nampak macam typical sangat ayat ni kan. tapi seriousla. saya fikir ni sampai tak boleh tidur. dunia ni sementara je. well, kite mesti nak yang terbaik kat mana-mana (dunia dan akhirat). tapi akhirat yang kekal selama-lama-lama-lama-lamanya ni macammana. ada orang amik peduli ke. saya saya emphasize word 'forever' because IT IS gonna be forever there.

dalam dunia kita ada banyak mission. nak ni nak tu. tak cukup ni. nak tu. manusia kan.

tapi alangkah bahagianya kan kalau kat akhirat yang forever tu kan kite dapat bende yang lebih indah.

alangkah bahagianya kan kite dapat syahid. seksa kubur pun takde. akhirat lagi bahagia.

oleh itu, dengan ini saya dengan ini nak menetapkan MISI HIDUP untuk jangka masa panjang dan kempen 'aku ingin syahid'.

sama-sama kita doa kita dapat syahid tak kira dalam apa jua keadaan sebab how it started is not important, but how our life gonna end is REAL important. REALLY

lepas ni nak doa banyak-banyak.

YA ALLAH. MATIKAN AKU DALAM IMAN DAN SYAHID.

AMIN. AMIN. AMIN

mati dalam menuntut ilmu pun syahid. kalau bersungguh-sungguh la. ni kalau sikit-sikit nak merungut. ish3. kan?

kalau macam ni setiap hari exam pun bole.

2011-02-26T19:50:00.003+08:00

erk. statement di atas. terkedu sebentar

haha

bukan ape. balik-balik dari library yang dah macam rutin. hari-hari pegi, (ceh. bajet skema la tu). bukan ape, kalau dah duduk rumah dah macam tak sedar diri nak Final. ade je bende nak buat. tak internet, masak. tak masak, tidur. tak tidur, datang rumah sebelah borak. hehe. padahal duduk library pun 2X5 je. takpe. environment tu penting. haha

sambung balik. balik rumah sampai -sampai kepenatan. lagi-lagi bile on the way balik, kite merempit belakang lorry pasir (ke tak?). yang penting lori tuh dengan sopannye menghamburkan pasir pasir yang bergelimpangan masuk ke mata ~~dan mulut~~ kalau tak bernasib baik la. feeling die macam hape. haha. pastu bawak motor dah nak tertutup mata berair menangis. konon. haha.

sampai rumah, terus menuju ke meja study. BUKAN STUDY LA. gile ke balik library study jugak. haha. letak beg je.

tiba-tiba,

jeng-jeng

ade ni

eh. tak nampak ek. tula meja serabut sangat pulak. kite kasi zoom sikit.

aww..sweet tak? sweet kan. semua cokelat feveret i. ni yang lagi sweet ni terus nak sambung nangis. ha ha. kan dah terharu sampai masuk blog. haha. ~~alasan~~

kalau i tau u oll nak bagi i cokelat tak payah i susah-susah pegi CS (city supermarket a.k.a. kedai runcit kat sini) lepas solat isyak semalam dengan PAKAI TELEKUNG. awkward sangat tau. tapi kempunan cokelat punye pasal. heh (sebenarnye ayam aka azian yang pakse teman) ngeh ngeh ngeh.

anyhow, wishing all my fellow batchmates, BEST OF LUCK in our 2nd Final MBBS exam which will be held on this Monday, February 28th 2011.

ZERO failure pretty please ya Allah, insyaAllah.

Amin. Amin. Amin,

p/s: baru perasan gambar tu tak nampak pun cokelat yang dorang bagi.

kak we bagi ferrerro roche dengan tobleroneeee ( baca gaye budak kecik berlagak). sampai silap taip (padahal tak tahu ejaan cekelat tu sebenarnye. hehe

ayam (nama orang) bagi kinder joy yang dapat free mainan tuuu. seeddap (baca gaya budak kecik gak)

persoalannye?

perlu ke aku mention cokelat ape yang dorang bagi gak. HAHAHAHA

tidak sihat

2011-02-18T13:12:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. :)

dari petang semalam kerja saya hanyalah tidur sebab tak sedap badan. bangun hanya untuk solat dan sambung tidur kembali.

entah apa yang silap, perut sangat sakit sampai satu badan sengal-sengal. diarrhea juga.demam adalah sikit tapi sakit yang melampaui demam. kafarah dosa mungkin. :(

sampai sekarang pukul 11 pagi badan masih sakit, tapi gagahkan diri untuk mandi dan start baca mycology. konon. baca beberapa helai masih sengal badan. pastu tidur kembali.

saya banyak main betul minggu ni. bila baru nak study tuhan bagi sakit. ada hikmahnya. dont procrastinate, Nadhirah.

sekarang sakit kepala sebab tidur terlalu banyak. nasi pun tak dijamah sejak tengahari semalam. tak ada selera.

sekarang perut hanya boleh terima bubur nasi dan buah. tak larat nak mengunyah pun. :(

saya cuma berharap cepat sembuh secepat mungkin dan boleh study macam biase. menjelang final MBBS yang beberapa hari lagi.

tiba-tiba menyesal tak balik Malaysia je untuk cuti ni. bukan selalu dapat cuti sebulan. entahlah. saya balik paling lama seminggu. cuma rindu keadaan rumah. tengok adik-adik membesar. lama dah tak rasa 'tinggal' di Malaysia. selalu balik rasa macam balik untuk acara sesuatu which semua orang busy.

oh ya. lama juga tak menjenguk ke kampung halaman di Kedah. it has been 2 years. :(

next cuti, dahla bulan 6. itupun mungkin satu minggu sahaja. tak boleh terlalu berharap. oh lamanya!

Semoga Allah memberi kesabaran dan kesembuhan. Amin. Amin. Amin..

3rd IA post-mortem

2011-02-08T19:43:00.003+08:00

it has been a while kan.

i was busy with exams so called 3rd Internal Assesment. ala-ala Trial Exam la kan before get into real Final 2nd MBBS examination which is 2 weeks from now.

so post mortem?

takde de nak post mortem ke ape-ape. yang dah lepas jadikan pengajaran *hint*

last paper was pharmacology and all drugs got mixed up. end up writing 'nausea and vomiting' as adverse effect for ALL the drugs. LOL. otak pun dah penat nak pikir. tulisan tak payah cakap la kan. haha

end of story.

actually my exam is still ongoing.

still have Practical Exam starting tomorrow only *read indian style*

memang tak bagi can nak relek sikit kan lepas theory. 2 weeks continuous exam memang boleh bagi i collapse lepas ni.

pray for me!

bye.

sape nak jadi pandai ?

2011-01-22T10:35:00.002+08:00

di pagi yang hening ni memang best kalau boleh relek-relek. tapi... you wish nadhirah, you wish.

so, what's up?

i'm still doing fine here in Bangalore with so many things to accomplished. hope all this will end soon. in a good way.

actually i dont have so much to say. just writing for the sake of updating my blog. heh

*trying to think*

oh seriously. i have nothing to say. cant believe this.

this proved that my life is getting lamer than everrr. hahahaha

actually i'm trying to avoid writing about the exams that's getting nearer but it turned out that i had nothing to say EXCEPT that. LOL

well, THAT is what my life is all about for the time being. hm.

actually, there are some interesting stories in hospital but i think everyone got bored reading my life as a pathetic medical student kan.

macam "ekeleh, takde life nye budak ni tak habis-habis cite pasal sekolah die, life die. hahaha".

so enough for now.

but you know, i think i'm so obsessed with ALL THIS MEDICINE STUFF. that my blog is FULL with them.

HA.

while writing this, at this recent moment, my friend was preparing herself for clinics at hospital until she got a phone call telling that the clinics was cancelled!

and you know why?

RIOT

again.

here in india we always get unexpected holiday which we dont know why. haha. and the riot oso i dont why. but why bother asking kan.

anyhow...

yeay for riot. yeay fo holiday. just hoping that the library is not closed. hish.

so that's it. till then.

i'm totally in!

2011-01-12T09:56:00.005+08:00

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2011-01-09T10:04:00.003+08:00

did i tell you that i am a big fan of youtube. i did eh? okay okay.

have you ever come across a chain video made by youtubers?

well, its actually response video to each other that makes the chain.

and today i burnt my whole Sunday morning watching one of the best, hilarious video chain ever. hahahahha -_-"

these.. yes THESE are suitable for somebody who likes music and comedy because its the combination of both which make the video so entertaining.

their FACIAL EXPRESSIONS are priceless!

really excited to share that i actually post this immediately after finishing the videoss

LOL

INTRODUCTION

Do you ever think that everything can be turned out to music?

they prove it, in their own wayy

ohh, how people can be so talented.. *jealous*

and as the video proceed the things they used become weirder, make you wonder 'eyy, this thing also can eh?'

i dont want to tell any further, not to spoil the excitement. hak hak

dan saya dengan rajinnya sanggup nak letak sume video tu. kene start dari awal sebab dia adalah CHAIN VIDEOS, remember?

actually ada je link add the end of the video to the next video. just click it.

so here goes the first one and follows by the sequence. hehehe.

and another thing that come across my mind.

HOW COME THEY CAN HAVE SO MUCH TIME FOR THIS?

hai

2011-01-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

my life ~~have~~ should getting hectic from now onwards 3 weeks to go and its no kidding man. 3rd IA and Final. Please pray. really really need it.

and sorry about my promise to blog about 'something i learnt from orthopaedics posting'. i actually had draft something about it, but due to lack of time, biar la ye buat pekasam kejap. nanti sambung.

not that i dont want to continue, but i just dont have the mood to continue it. when i got the mood, i was typing and there came one by one people to discuss, asking question, ajak borak and so forth, to me. haih. terus takde mood balik. tekan X. TAK JADI.

takut-takut lupa pulak ape nak tulis. hahaha. (Bajet sungguh anda ada orang nak baca)

so, now i've started my medicine posting back. it was good, for now. i actually like medicine subject ~~a lot~~ because it really test your knowledge of pharmacology and pathology. and also your level of suspicion in diagnosing the disease. medicine is a very vast subject and you can actually learn a lot from the posting.

and we got lines of doctors in this department, all are specialist in their own field. be it, cardiologist, pulmonologist, oncologist, hepatologist, gastroenterologist. all system-lah. pendek kata semua ada. memang mengagumkan! dan bagi saya doctor department inilah paling nampak intelligent. yang lain lepak-lepak je. which is cool jugak.

and yeah. i really feel like a real, intelligent doctor in this posting. because it requires lots of thinking and we did apply lot of medical technique in this field. those inspection, palpation, percussion and auscultation are used mostly in this posting.

most of all, i like the challenge and i think this field is the most challenging one. hmm. though i may not participate most of the time in the case taking. :B

its just that maybe the posting started at a very wrong time. finals in 3 weeks. nobody want to go to clinics anymore. and for my class which is dominated by boys, the class was so empty during this hectic time except for several nerds (ahem) who the guilt of not going to school. not that i want to say that boys are lazy but..

YEAH. hahahahaha

sometimes they take things so easy. which is good at certain point but also not good at certain point.

but good thing is, we (the nerds) got to learn more interactively with the doctors in a small group. yeay! (sungguh skema -_-". tak dapat nak cakap apa dah)

so, thats all for now. keep praying for me especially to overcome my laziness and sleepiness during this time. peace !

Habis Sudah

2010-12-30T18:33:00.002+08:00

*drums roll*

dengan ini diumumkan, my clinical posting di Orthopaedics department TAMAT.

macam ape. tak berdebar pun kan. -_-"

semalam exam theory yang sepatutnye senang tapi menjadi susah bila basic anda sangatlah teruk

sekali lagi saya katakan BASIC! BASIC!

eh dah dua kali pulak kan

untuk medical student, basic yang sangat penting adalah apa yang anda belajar masa 1st year. especially. especially. especially ANATOMY.

ya anda nampak banyak 'especially' disitu bukan salah taip ke terpaste ke kan.

dan I FAILED MISERABLY :((((( bukan fail exam. result pun belum keluar kot. fail nak ingat balik anatomy lah.

untuk itu, junior sila mantopkan anatomy. jangan bila orang tanya 'what is hamstring muscle?'

anda jawab dengan lajunye: 'semimembranosus, semitendinosus, biceps brachii, adductor magnus.

biceps brachii? ha kan dah keliru dah. kan kan?

ITU BISEPS TANGAN LA. biceps FEMORIS, FEMORIS~~sengal~~

macam teruk pulak kan example ni. lower limb punye muscle dah naik kat upper limb. apekah??
ni contoh tersenang. ~~sebab ingat muscle ni je. kantoi~~

tapi lebih kurang gitu la. kalau 1st year main-main. semua bende bercampur aduk. tu baru muscle belum lagi ligament, belum lagi nerve supply, blood supply. eh. tetibe rasa anatomy memang susah kan. he he he

so, begitu lah kesimpulannya, oh dan tadi exam practical. juga anatomy. kekecewaan berbuah buah disitu. heh. sampai bile nak bagi kertas time spotters, bagi terus dan terus lari keluar. kah kah

malu die tengok kertas yang dah buruk dengan tulisan dan jawapan yang dah dicancel beberapa kali.

so, what did i learnt from my posting?

tunggu next post la. penat type.

Long Way

2010-12-26T20:19:00.002+08:00

Oh tahun 2010 akan berlalu meninggalkan kita. My exams are approaching tooo. I'm so scared. :'(

3 tahun. kawan-kawan. 3 tahun saya dah pakai handphone saya dan ia masuk ke lubang jamban jua. ni pun sedih :(

i still have a very long journey ahead. May Allah stays beside me. ALWAYS.

pengumuman: saya akan ada 3rd IA (macam trial) which will start on 31st January onward. 3 minggu

dan FINAL insyallah dengan gap hanya seminggu dari 3rd IA, dan bersambung kembali non-stop 3 weeks exam. nervous sangat. tak tahu kenapa. tapi nervous

ya. tahu exam je pun. tapi tahla. maybe fobia sangat-sangat kot. lagi nak dekat exam lagi result test-test teruk. terasa down sebentar. haihhhh

so its gonna be 2 months of hardwork, toughness, and sacrifices. so, bear it people of what my emotion can turned out during this hard time. (read: i will be emotional. :B)

and yes. that will explain my 'may-be' absence in this holy blog. kah kah

though i know it might be the other way round. LOL

and i think i should be less active online. kah kah lagi skali

(padahal bosan bosan je bukak facebook)

so untuk permulaan. DEACTIVATE FACEBOOK

kah kah

WHAT?

i mean it!

I REALLY MEAN IT, PEOPLE. just see. heh

try

2010-12-24T01:50:00.001+08:00

still struggling.... May Allah help me to success Insyaallahh.

sakit hati ku tsk tsk

2010-12-19T15:45:00.003+08:00

selalu macam ni tau. bile kite tengah tengok tv channel HBO cerita animation, sedap sedap dan dah halfway, nak dekat klimaks.....

TAP!

blackout! lama kot.. dari dah elok-elok study depan tv, terus takde mood nak study walaupun sebenarnye time tu dah takde bende nak buat. yela. for a geek like me, everything that put my interest in, need electricity!

sangat menyakitkan hati. sangat ! bukan sekali tapi banyak kali. dahla saya bukan suka sangat tengok tv, ada certain movie yang kite minat nak tengok jadi cani. SETIAP KALI. serius annoying.

sabar. sabar.

dah bengang sangat terus bukak torrent carik balik cite tadi

type: The Magic Sword Quest For Camelot

klik download.

time remaining: 57 days! pffffft 0 seeds

orang dah habis FINAL okay time tu.

entah kenapa

2010-12-18T20:36:00.005+08:00

entah kenapa gambar ini mengingatkan ku kepada memori lalu yang sangat mulia dan indah.

oh Allah, always. always, always remains me in a correct path. jangan kau bawa dan biar aku tersasar jauh, ya Allah.

tiba-tiba ingin menjadi yang dulu malah lebih baik. beri aku kekuatan. juga rindu sahabat-sahabat duluuuuuuu. indahnya ukhwah. benarlah ukhwah itu sangat beda dengan kawan, rakan malah sahabat. oh mulianya!

........

hamalatul quran. oh rindunya!

Christmast Dinner

2010-12-15T13:32:00.008+08:00

What a great feeling to have a morning, free of classes. ahhh

i can have proper breakfast, watching morning program on tv, got to read news on internet, yeah and today siap bole masak nasi lemak. hahaha

well, as promised earlier this one is about my Hospital Chrismast dinner. 2 reasons i attend this ceramony

1. to respect the invitation given by the doctors

friend's invitation card

2. makan free beb. sape tak nak. hahaha :B

mula2 agak malas je nak bergerak ke hospital. yela bila weekend dah sedap duduk rumah nak keluar memang sangat malas. tapi pegi jugak at last

hospital tempat saya posting memanglah sangat meriah sambuatn chrismast die. decoration kat hospital die gempak2. chrismast trees everywhere. siap ade yang patung2 kecik tu saya pun takpaham. macam ade pertandingan pulak kan. sume ward dan department hias gempak-gempak. ni gambar tak siap habis hias lagi. skang lagi lebih2 siap ade banyak sangat christmast tree dekat koridor plus something yang patung2 tu die letak kat EACH KORIDOR. dengan lampu2 bagai. meriah gile. ~~sampai nak lalu pun dah sempit~~

kantoi amik gambar time ward round. ekikiki

bende dalam kotak tula yang ade patung2. yang tu miniature je. sebab letak kat opd je. kalau yang dekat ward lagi besar dgn chrismast tree yang lebih besar. hmmmmmm

balik kepada cerita, datang2 hospital ingat biase2 je la kan, sekali dekat 600 orang jugaklah kat situ. agaknya satu hospital punya staff and their family. pastu hiasan die memang hebat dan banyak jugak persembahan yang pelik2. tak paham. (padahal tak tengok) ade la chrismast carol and so. pastu ending die best when all the kids pegi dekat pentas and shout 'we want santa! we want santa!' then tibe2 muncul santa dari back of the audience. cool gile.

anyway, banyak bende tak tengok pun. in fact kitorang tak duduk pun. pegi berdiri siap2 dekat2 tempat food (ingat motif! haha) tunggu bila die nak bukak the place. ~~sambil usha2 doctor and their wives and kids pastu patah hati. elele. LOL.~~

yang doctor garang-garang pulak tengok who's their partner. who's that lucky person. hahaha

actually i dont believe doctor garang-garang la, doctors are BORN TO BE NICE (exception to certain), they aren't that MEAN, are they? ~~ko dapat exam dengan dorang sekali baru tahu langit tinggi rendah. haha~~

i mean, dorang memang strict SANGAT. sampai bile kelas die sume orang keluar dan sangat obvious kot. sampai even bile memang sikit org attend kelas that day he/she said 'why this many only, because its my class isn't it?' well, reality hurts man hak hak tapi i still believe that there are good side of them. hahah.

tapi what i'm thinking is jangan carik pasal la. dah nak carik psal memang la kene maki. (datang lambat, dont read before class etc)

and its proven, one of the so-called-bitchy-doctor, ~~sampai the boys said that 'die mesti tak kahwin punyelah'. kejam2~~ turned out to have a very nice husband (READ: handsome). haha. apebende handsome prove theory 'good side' nih. macam tak kene je. haha

anyhowwww,

tempat amik makanan die masyaAllah besar gile and banyak gile stalls and we had to go to the stall indicated in our invitation card accordingly.

hm. everyone got their favourite lecturer. eleh jangan tipu la. and i got mine tu. *malu*.

bukan ape. sekadar hiburan di kala kebosanan. takkan la serius memanjang kan. since doktor adalah orang yang paling lama kite hadap dalam sehari, so hmm. hak hak. tak senonoh.

kriteria: tidak mengira usia tetapi agak terpengaruh dengan pangkat dan style. oh dan juga ketinggian. paras rupa kurang dititik beratkan (ingat!kite takde choice). yang penting styylle. sense of humor juga satu plus point. kah kah kah

oh style yang diperkatakan bukanlah style rambut, baju etc tetapi style bercakap dan confident level. dan juga knowledge (read: pangkat)

yang tak cool. teettt OUT OF LIST. HAHAHA

AMARAN: ini adalah PERMAINAN sahaja. jangan terbawak2 sampai luar hospital. over tauu.

so kire malam tu sesi mematahkan hati masing2 bila tengok mereka dan pasangan mereka. YE. drama itu perlu. haha

and here's ~~mine~~. eh tak. doktor yang diperkatakan.

*alamak gambar tak dapat amik dengan jelas sebab banyak sangat lampu so sangat beri effect pada gambar dan juga.... malu. hehe

SEE! lihat balik criteria.

YA. MENCUKUPI. kah kah kah.

untuk introduction. he's a urosurgeon dan fasih berbahasa inggeris (apakah) (read: STYLE).

hahaha

oklah. rasenye cukup kot mengarut ~~menggatal~~ hari ni

nak muntah dah rasa.

going to MG to eat aka break fast!

salam 10 muharram!

p/s: entri ni dibuat dalam 3 kali sambungan (2 hari). tu yang start entry morning, padahal habis buat sekarang dah petang.

tak cukup masa+takde mood (tak best la buat entry tak de mood) punya pasal. akhirnya habis. alhamdulillah. walaupun ending die macam ape. hehe

Awesome

2010-12-11T23:25:00.004+08:00

when 2 of my listss of favourite youtubers bergabung tenaga dalam satu videyo.

the result= awesomeness

dont ask why i like them.

well, its in their voice (ceh. jawab jugak) and i envy the fact that they can play the musical instrument so well. hmph

p/s: just came back from BBH Christmast Dinner. hospital thingy. updates soon.

cold IS torturing

2010-12-07T08:55:00.003+08:00

well i should be reading microbe now since last night i was sleeping like a baby (macam tak biase) tapi ni agak luar biase sebab tido after dinner so bile bangun nak solat isya perut sakit amat okay,

tapi takpe blog je sambil-sambil. ~~sambil-sambil ape kalau laptop letak atas buku~~

anyway *terus lupekan*, last entry was about me going to nando's which to my dissappoinment (though expected) tak dapat direalisasikan. for reason that they were having some technical problem in the kitchen, so it can only be opened at after 2 (ni kene convert lagi ni. india kan). so malas nak berlapar, kitorang just pergi restaurant nearby having steak for lunch. ngehehe

indah kabar dari rupa. hampeh

so berbalik kepada tajuk, Bangalore dilanda kesejukan yang amat, ~~kalau dah sampai tulis blog sambil mencangkung atas kerusi tu ha, self explainatory~~

of my almost 2 years and a half here, this is one of the coldest temperature i felt here. sejuk sangat. tambah menyeksakan bila rumah kite lantainya adalah tile so memijak lantai adalah salah satu bende yang torturing. sangat sejuk.

and dengan keadaan tak pasang kipas pun still sejuk, i think its about time for room heater (poyo). and that really explained my laziness in study and bergerak2 pun sangatlah malas yan menyebabkan kehidupanku di rumah adalah sekitar katil dan.............. katil. ya.

sindrom musim sejuk:

1. bangun tido dan bergerak ke bilik air mengambil masa sepuluh minit walaupun sebenarnya hanya 5 tapak sahaja dari katil.

2. having shower for at least 15 minutes under the shower only, sebab tak sanggup menghadapi dunia yang sangat sejuk. so bawah shower je panas. LOL

3. pemalas nak keluar. pegi surau and so forth, sejuk gile. keluar rumah lagi macam masuk peti sejuk.(ini tidak bagus kawan2). takkan nak pegi surau pun pki sweater bagai (alasan.alasan ish2)

4. lepas je sampai ke destinasi naik motor (ni paling terseksa so far, lagi-lagi ko baru lepas basuh muka/amik wudu' pastu terus naik motor, menjerit kau kesejukan), terus pegang hidung. pastu cakap 'numb gile hidung aku ni'

5. terseksa amat nak pegang handphone dan semua alat elektronik ku yang 50% mengandungi aluminium/besi that covered them. terkejut urat tangan nak angkat phone/main game.

6. baju kat luar tak nak kering-kering. die hanya tahu sejuk-dan sejuk. sampai tak tahu differentiate dah kering ke tak. sebab sentiasa sejuk

7. kalau buat air kene minum dalam 5 minit, kalau tak dah jadi sejuk pastu dah tak best dah.

8. kat dalam bilik air nak bukak air punye terseksa sebab sume handle die besi=sejuk. pastu suma proses pembasuhan akan delay sebab tak sanggup nak siram air yang sejuk beku keatas diriku.

ini adalah sindrom saya. anda bagaimana?

Selamat Pagi

2010-12-05T09:18:00.003+08:00

Morning is always the best part of the day. for me. hmm. i feel s fresh now. well, bath doesn't count. sejuk kot.

and the weather here in Bangalore now is so comforting. 'aircond' is everywhere. but for a less fat people like me, have to wear sweater all the times. sad. sad.

so surgery exam was over and that will be the end of my 5 weeks endless posting in surgical wards, opd and ot. i will be missing this posting badly. because the next posting will only be the next sem (after my finals. woweee)

so, here are some snap i got during my posting in surgery. the venue is so random. mostly around OT, OPD and also during rounds. (berani sungguh kaw amik amik gamba. haha)

so talking about taking picture in rounds, i suddenly remember about this one guy mat saleh, not that simple guy actually, but he is a surgeon back in US doing, maybe some research in India, got himself posted in my beloved Bangalore Baptist Hospital. so ever morning he will join us, eh, the doctors so rounds. he usually took pictures of some chronic disease for his research. you know how is the condition in India hospital so not to be mentioned, the nurses even use ECG clip or whatsoever (the one that is round and we usually put it on chest) TO CLIP THE CURTAIN to the wall.

me, being normal at it just stay cool (ahem), but he actually so amazed with that, that even took a picture of that. LOL. i wonder how useful that picture for his research. good things about him that he talked so loud (freaking loud) that everytime he explained something when the doctors asked of his opinion, the whole ward can hear his voice and shaking too. (hyperbole). and yes the way he pronounced words was exactly like the one we heard in the cassette 'learning english by audio' LOL. seriously. (he talks real slow, wordd by word). maybe i just got used to indian way of pronouncing word(very fast) but its goood (ehehe. i like anything fast. haha)

so today, have to settled few things (buy sarees and stuff, is that really counted?haha) before actually start fresh for my finals. because i dont want anything to bother me more after this. so this is the last weekend to fool around (mean it, Nadhirah!)

yeah, so Nando's today! yeay. -_-"

sigh

2010-12-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

Just a sigh.. Having exams or so called test 3 days in row is not the thing that i love. ObviouslyWell life must go on and here i am reading bailey and love (this is surgery book people). Bad thing about this book is its so freaking heavy that i can't even bring it to my bed. Ehehe. Good thing is i dont get sleepy like yesterday and all this while. Huh. That i can only answered only 2 questions (hardly) out of 6 question asked in my patho test this evening and that didnt even include the main question. Seriously got no idea at all. I even left one question without answering it. Double sadness ;((Frankly, i dont really feel sad for the test but yeah being worried of what is going to happen. With hardly 1 month ++ to FINAL (that includes 1.5 years portion to be studied) and i dont start anythingI suddenly remember my conversation in lab with my colleague He said 'aku dah buat dah jadual untuk final tapi aku tak rase sempat' with worried voiceIf only he knows that i dont start anything. Haha and that happenned last week okay. Well, this is bad. And yeah. I guess this is a wake up call for me ( who cant even stay awake even after 9. Sigh) Instead of babbling here, better i continue reading haemorrhoids. HehP/s: suddenly hearing voice of people making some celeb. Birthday maybe. Arghh. Stop talking about birthday. Mine was so saddening. :((

WISH BUT NOT LIST

2010-11-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

this is just a wish! forget about all my other wishes.

I WISH I CAN HAVE 'MAC BOX SET' TO UPGRADE MY LAME OLD TIGER VERSION OF MACBOOK TO SNOW LEOPARD VERSION.

NEVERMIND THOSE ARE JUST MAC ridiculous 'TERMs' OF ITS SYSTEM.

ANYHOW I REALLY WISH I CAN HAVE THIS..AT LEAST ON MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYY.

hmmm. i have to save A LOT. why la u are so expensive :((

serius sedih tak ingat ni. kalau tak, nak laptop baru!! i guess its time!

oh Lord, please grant my wish. :(

hari raya!

2010-11-21T20:38:00.005+08:00

AMARAN: entri ni agak kejam. muahahahaa

ni sebenarnya entri tertangguh semenjak hari raya hari tu lagi. nak post tapi asyik tak sempat. idea dicetuskan oleh Cik Asiah Kamal semasa sleep over rumah Ramadhan hari tu bersama Puan Afifah Shuhardi

time tengah tengok-tengok homepage kat facebook, banyakk sangat status syahdu pleh kawan-kawan di India. haha. so dengan kejamnye sanggup snapshot satu-satu status. LOL. ingat nak buat entry on the spot. tapi maklumlah ke busy an melanda. ~~bajet sekarang banyak la masa sangat~~

kenapa saya di Malaysia. sebab saya balik raya. mereka tidak. ahaha (sila jangan lempang aku)

kenapa? sebab nak exam 3rd raya. macam buat kerja gila jugakla balik. tapi tensi punya pasal....

anyway,

so sempena hari raya haji ni, kita lihat kembali status-status mereka.

harap-harap mereka cool. ni buat suka-suka. no offense. hehehe.

so tak kaburkan nama. jangan nak carik pulak kat facebook. :B

ni pun sikit je sebab malas dah nak snap. hehehe

sekali lagi no offense :)

HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

2010-11-17T18:22:00.003+08:00

hari ini saya rasa macam biasa je. bangun, pastu ingat nak dapat feel pegi la surau nak bertakbir. rupa-rupanya kejap je takbir lepas subuh ~~panjang mana lagi kau nak nadhirah~~, dan pulang ke rumah. hujan renyai-renyai.

duduk dirumah kejap-kejap nak makan. tapi ditahan. nak dapat sunat ~~konon~~. takpe. setahun sekali je kan. so, kejap je. bukan puasa pun. kat luar hujan lebat. syahdu dan sunyi sepi. seolah-olah semua orang tidur

tunggu nak semayang raya, memang dah lapar, kuah kacang Koti kat dapur tu nampak dah tempting habis. walaupun saya bukanlah penggemar kuah kacang. oh. tapi kutahan. last-last. mengadap laptop lama-lama. nak feel. pasang lagu raya.

mahu call mak. kredit tak seberapa. entah bulan ini agak pokai. insurans, motor suma pakai duit. so, tunggu sampai pukul 8. katanya solat raya 815 ~~janji india~~. baju pun tak pikir nak pakai apa.

nak dapat feel lagi pasang takbir. habis. pasang lagu raya. macam orang tak keruan. sunyi sepi weh Gokula! (my place)

so dah bersiap buat mini fotografi dengan housemate kat rumah gerak ke kolej. oh hujan renyai-renyai menjadi lebat. habis basah. bersama baju raya. sila imagine. oh btw basah sebab naik motor. -_-"

sampai kolej. ish tak boleh jadi nih pegi surau. pegi keringkan tudung at least. dah kering (sikit) pastu naik atas takbiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirr (lama) baru solat! dan khutbah. memang janji india tup tup dah habis solat pukul 10.

habis tu ada program kat dewan. tak bole tahan lapar terus gerak pegi cafe hospital beli something to eat. lepas tu balik dewan untuk some occasion by our student society.

habis, baru makan. dan pulang.

oh dan ambil daging korban (tanpa melihat lembunya).

oh ya. SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

Nadhirah Ibrahim

Bangalore India. 1605, 17hb Nov 2010.

and this is my 3rd Eid Adha in India. :)

AHAD

2010-11-14T16:42:00.001+08:00

simply ahad. hari bermalasan. eh. dan ya. ini post tidak bermakna.

baru sahaja selesai makan nasi dan ikan masak asam pedas bersama dengan peria dimasak bersama udang. terangkat!

oh ya, baru i got nasi+ayam masak madu+kerabu+sambal paru for my lunch actually since someone selling it and i ordered it. (masih mood meniaga lepas hari sukan), but very kind of farina wanna 'jamu' us lunch, so maybe i'll take them for dinner.

woosh. macam orang tua dah bile tengok menu kan.

when i was eating the peria at farina's, i was thinking if i dont get far from my house, i dont think i'll eat those paru, peria sambal belacan, terung. haha. since i was a bit picky on foods in my house (kat rumah boleh la nak demand). but living here with not so many choice, i basically will eat everything given to me. so, its good actually for me as i can eat variety of food and.. yes vegetables and even cook them!

but now i am craving for something sweet and delicious. i actually bought so many sweet things in the shop sampai rasa macam nak dapat diabetes, but still cant get rid of my craving. if i am pregnant, i will say this as mengidam yang over.

hmm. where can i get them near gokula or in Bangalore? and no. i dont want Indian sweets.

as if someone would reply.. i_i

happy

2010-11-11T21:35:00.005+08:00

at the moment i just came back from a very tiring activity though i'm not technically participated in it. haha

1. HARI SUKAN

as i told before the sports week had started and the majlis kemuncak is today. so, day off today for sports. hooray. erk. it was held in a stadium near Jain Hospital, (as if you all know, and yeah the landmark i gave is a hospital, sooo medic)

and to make this short, we won. our team won. batch 3 won. MIGHTY APES WON, babehh!

hmm, along with the sports activities, we had something we called Food Festival, urm which i can call MINI PASAR MALAM, where we, students took this opportunity to gain some pocket money, for their own purpose. to travel, to kawin (ops) and also maybe just to have extra money. LOL.

and of course in this country, when someone sells MALAYSIAN FOOD, it has to be VERY PRICEY, konon2 tak susa nak dapat la. AS IFFFF I CANT COOK, very expensive lahh. huh. cume malas.ehehehe

so.. ahem. i did bought something (read: many things) from the stalls. and i just couldn't forget the taste of the ribs, sedap sangattt. and also laksa, dadih, roti john, apple pie, etc etc. you guys dah berjaye dah membuat saya melanggar pantang untuk berbelanja lebih2 this month.

remember, I HAVE TO SAVE A LOT for something i planned, so please don't do this next time. ish. i even bawak bekal kot, nak save punye pasal, nak nak datang sini ha hamik kau sume aku beli. dahla harga ya ampun. (jangan banyak komen pasal harga kan). okay tarik balik.

nanti uploads photo of this event okay. so malas nak transfer the photos from my camera

okay. my leg ache so much. it feels like i blood from my leg failed to drain into the right atrium of my heart. dont say i'm going to have varicose vein. oh no no. too young. no no.

though recently i'd been for quite a number of time in the operation theatre for my surgical posting. but hell no. this is not the one. (fact: varicose vein is common in surgeon due to long standing operation)

2. UPSR

eh bukan. saya bukan amik UPSR. adik saya amik UPSR and congratulation Nurul Huda Ibrahim. you learnt from the best. ahaks

3. tak ingat dah. tadi banyak sangat nak tulis. sekarang dah penat ya ampun. oklah nanti kite sambung.

oh if you think tomorrow i'll get a day off (cuti peristiwa), no no. in fact,

POSTING AT 8 TOMORROW. thank you.

sejukkkkkk

2010-11-08T21:07:00.003+08:00

entry ini ditulis atas dasar kemalasan mahu bergerak kemana-mana. sungguh malas.

soalnya, Bangalore yang sangat sejuk pastu dah tak tau nak lari kemana lagi. bayangkan katil dan comforter which should be comforting pun dah bertukar menjadi sejuk. so, duduk atas katil sejuk. selimut pun sejuk. oh!

ni belum masuk kemalasan nak ke bilik air sendiri. heh padahal 2 meter je. sebabnye. nanti kalau pijak lantai sejukkkkk. last-last carik selipar yang bole dijadikan selipar rumah. dah tak tahan dah sejuk sangat ni. solution: amik wudu' sekali pakai untuk 2 waktu. oh sungguh ujian nak beribadat.

nak keluar lagi worst, sebab lagi sejuk dari rumah, macam masuk peti ais (over), pastu tambahan angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa yang jadi ala-ala 'fan' aircond. haha

pastu bila masuk library yang dah tanggal kipas sebab nak masuk aircond (konon), terus:

'eh dah pasang aircond ke?' pastu sibuk carik mane aircond tu. padahal TAK PASANG LAGI. tapi sebab cuaca dah sejuk sangat. hahahaha

yang lagi worst bile kite nak masuk library, pastu tibe2 librarian tu tegur kite 'you should not wear your apron (read:lab coat) here'

sejuk kottt. tolong tolerate sikit plis.

semua sejuk. air cepat sejuk, makanan sejuk, handle pintu sejuk laptop sejuk. pen sejuk, baju sejuk, erm buku pun sejuk. ahaks

serius la weh. betul buku sejuk.(alasan ni. alasan ni). tapi tak tipu. perasaan die macam zaman sekolah dulu dapat buku latihan dari bilik guru cikgu pulangkan pastu sume cakap 'uu, sejuknye. bestnye'. pastu letak buku kat pipi. kan? kan? tak payah tipu.

pastu bile panas je, terus pegi bilik guru amik aircond. kan? kan? eh. ini cerita lain.

oh nak menambah seksa bile hujan yang dari pagi ke malam. pastu baju tak dapat dibasuh (kerisauan suri rumah tangga)

moga esok panas (sikit). hmmm.....

SPORTS FEVER!

2010-11-06T23:03:00.004+08:00

its sport ~~day~~ week in Bangalore. i mean in my college.

baru balik dari menyokong rakan-rakan yan berjuang. ehehe

dan hujan renyai2 tak mematahkan semangat kami. LOL

dan hasilnya:

em. bole tak esok tak nak pegi seminar pharmaco dengan alasan 'saya selesema cikgu'

sungguh! dan hopefully tak demam. ya. laporan kaji cuaca mengatakan yang Bangalore sudah mencapai suhu 18C. sangat sejuk la. (for me) lagi2 kalau kau naik motor berangin2. hish

kat luar lagi sejuk dari dalam rumah. kat sini kalau nak aircond hanya perlu buka pintu balkoni dan ya. nikmatilah ia dengan percuma...

akhir kata..majulah sukan untuk batch

COME ON MIGHTY APES!

P/S: err. mighty apes name batch kami. ngehehe. dan ya entry ni macam takde isi sebab saje je nak menaip. hakhak

CHENNAI

2010-11-03T09:55:00.008+08:00

pagi ni macam banyak masa je. nak update sikit. pasal Chennai. kawasan ramai rakyat Malaysia came from.

PURPOSE UTAMA: makan. makan dan makan

hmmmmpph

bertolak pada hari sabtu sebaik sahaja selesai exam end-posting OBG. eh tak tak. beberapa jam lepas tu. over pulak menaiki kenderaan mpv yang hmmm.

mengambil masa seLAMA 7 jam. jam, accident perkara biasa yang melambatkan perjalanaan. tapi tapi jalan die sangat okay berbanding nak pegi MANIPAL. sebab disini kita ada highway yang AGAK okay. adela perhentian untuk menyempurnakan hajat dan oh ye ade surau. tapi macam biase untuk lelaki sahaja. india ni bajet orang perempuan tak semayang. -_-"

dan on the wayyy, banyak sangat kedai mercun. ni yang versi besar2 punye. siap bole pilih bunga api corak ape nak. besar sangat. dan banyak sangat. dan sepanjang jalan. kalau kat malaysia ni dah bole kene saman. tapi sini memang sambut diwali dengan mercun yang 24 jam tanpa henti. kalau sesaat berhenti pun dah kire bersyukur tau. bayangkan 3 hari dengar mercun je. bole pekak telinga tau.

salah satu kedai mercun otw. tengok papan hitam tua de corak2 bunge api. gempak tak gempak

bertolak sepatutnye pukul 1 tapi disebabkan hal yang tak dapat dieelakkan terpaksa jugak pegi pukul 3. punyela rushing nak kejar makan kat restoran tu sebab restoran tu tutup pukul11. pelikkan. bukan mamak bukak 24-7 ke. tapi tak. bile tanye kawan die cakap: 'memang rule kat sini tak bole bukak overnight'. heh padanla takde 7E kat sini.

okay sampai sana dah pukul 11 macam da takde harapan nak makan sana. i_i. tapi still trying nak carik the restaurant. tak jumpe-jumpe. kalau ikut google map its only 4 MINUTES WALKING from our hotel. the thing is kami dah jumpe dah hotel tapi mana datang restoran tu? takde pun. dah give up carik pakai keta kami pi check in dulu, and tanya kat receptionist: ' do you know pelita nasi kandar? malaysian restaurant?'

'oh near only, you go balbalbablba, but i dont think at this time its still open. but there's one restaurant nearby that'll open till 12'

taknak jadik lebai malang kami cari restoran sampai pukul 12 tu (padahal dah lapar gile), makan la sana.

tengok keliling takde bayang PELITA NASI KANDAR PON.

hampa dan pulang.

KESIMPULAN: GOOGLE MAP TAKBOLE PECAYE. ~~nilah manusia. bile sekali salah nak claim orang teruk. padahal encik google la yang membantuku selama ni. okay tarik balik~~

esok pagi meneruskan pencarian jalan kaki okay. dahla orang kat sini English agak teruk. nasib baik i duduk Bangalore tauu. pakcik auto pun pandai english. sini. naik auto nak cakap 'my hotel just near, go straight only' die tak paham, suro bagi name road. alaa leceh la.

back to story, kami tak jumpe the so called restaurant jalan kaki. give up, tanye pakcik auto then naik je auto pegi sana. lol. konon nak jimat sebab ingat dekat.

rupenyeee. ni bukan 4 minit berjalan. 4 MINUTES RUNNING agaknye. ahahaha

naik auto pun 4 minutes. takpe asalkan jumpe

masuk2 tengok dah ramai kawan2 (yang ikut trip lain, biasela kalau ade cuti sume nak jalan tempat sama. dasar budak IMS). malas nak tunggu lame, terus tengok menu order. lapar sangat sampai taksempat amik gambar. semua sedapp. makan rotitelur, rotibom, roti pisang, nasi lemak, mi goreng mamak, air milo ais, bandung, cendol, ABC. cukupla kan takat nak breakfast :b. yang bestnye menu sume bahasa melayu yang dicintai.

ni sume breakfast sambil tengok tv yang ade lagu2 tamil. pastu jadi takpasal2 sorang-sorang jadi 'juri' tak bertauliah

the menu. bahasa melayu okay

pastu eh. jumpe classmates. pastu buat buat ' ehhh, orang Malaysia' macam poyo nak kene sepak. pastu borak macam setahun tak jumpe.

then, macam takde keje je, pegi la pantai yang sangat dekat dan tak cantik. eh macam takkene kombinasi tu.

dalam gambar nampak macam 'eh, ni gambar kat Dubai la, padang pasir je'

TAK BUKAN padang pasir, tapi sebab die punye pantai tu sangatla panjang dan besar sampai kene jalan agak jauh baru lah bole cakap 'ehh la... la laut' sambil terlelah-lelah (hehe hiperbola).

ha see tu kan laut

lepas tu jalan2 kat Chennai punye bandar yang only 'a stone throw away from our hotel'. dengarnye sari murah.

Ya Allah, ramai ya rabbi orang. maklumlah weekend sume orang shopping untuk diwali. saya perasan orang sini sambut diwali gile gempak la. meriahh sangat sangat. kalau kat Bangalore takdela macam ni. biase je. baru teringat orang kat sini=malaysian india yang sambut deepavali meriah gile2 .

jalan kat situ dah macam jalan tar versi lebih panjang. sepanjang jalan ade jualan. tapi pelik2. ade ke patut baju tidur nak jual gakk. haahha. macam biase mercun banyak gile.

so ingat nak singgah kedai saree yang digembargemburkan menarik. ya Allah, ramai, padat dan ringkas. eh. sampai nak msuk macam kedai suasan die macam berebut nak naik bus RapidKL kat shah alam dulu. haha. btw, bas kat sini lagi dahsyat. yang penting kat sini lebih bising (honking) , lebih ramai dan lebih kotor dari Bangalore. bukan nak promote Bangalore tapi Bangalore memang lagi OK. OK je ye. haha.

'meriah tak 'meriah'

traffic congested

auto kat sini tebalik dari bangalore. atas hitam bawah kuning. comel *tetibe*

diorang ni asal bole letak sebelah kaki dan bas jalan takkisah. i wonder how the bus conductor will charge them. hahaha

yang ni klaka. tengah2 ramai orang bole tak makcik ni duduk. dah kepenatan. tengah jalan okay.

mule2 nak give up. tapi masuk je la dengan beramai2 bersama tempe tempe (tempe=rakyat tempatan), masuk lagi dahsyat la kan. kasi experience siket. silela lihat ape kat dalam.

meriah tak meriah. tak nampak barang nampak orang je.

depan kedai yang macam kene beratur nak masuk. hampass. ni kalau orang curi pun tak perasan kan.

in the shop, tengok orang yang nak naik tangga tu.

dan yang bagusnye system bayar die memag effisien la kan. ~~kalau tak effisien tak tau la. punyela ramai orang. nak menangis tau~~

ni sistem bayar die yang di siap pack saree2 yang dah nak dibeli. pastu claim with token or receipt. ni kat depan ni je dah 5 minit. gerak macam siput. padahal nak keluar kot.

tapi sempat la usha sarees kat sana.cantik dan murah tapi bile tengok kaunter pembayaran. hmmm. pastu kedai tu memang besar dua tingkat. nak naik tangga pun kene beratur. ini sudah terukk. tengok kat lift. lagi dahsyat. suasana yang sama nak naik bus RapidKL dengan lebih ramai orang.

those sarees yang sempat tengok tapi tak sempat bayar :B

ceh pastu terpaksa giveup. perjalanan keluar dari kedai dah 10 minute okay. dan keluar searching for kedai yang lebih lengang. lengang=mahal.

konon. tak nak bersempit.

ni yang lengang sikit. tapi ramai la jugak orang. tapi bolela nak bergerak. kat dalam ni kalau nak tengok muke orang india kaye yang sombong silakan.

still in the shop. lawa gile kedai ni.

TAPI bile tengok harga. boleh terbeliak mata. elaun sebulan okay. okay bye.

haha. give up lagi skali dan penat dah berebut, pastu lapar balik. hak hak. so pegi makan balikkk. kali ni pekena nasi kandar, ABC, ketam goreng, sate, tak ingat la lagi. pastu lagi skali: 'ehh orang Malaysia, padahal orang yang sama jumpe, borak2. pastu penat lelah dah makan. balik la hotel dan jalan2 kat kedai around the hotel. yang tak mendatangkan hasil. which is good sebab dah pokaimokailokai.

siap2 kemas barang nak balik checkout sume. menyediakan mental dan physical untuk journey back (lebih-lebih), dan bergerak balik ke restoran untuk makan lagi. haha. kata motif datang nak makan.

so malam ni makan kueh teaw goreng, horlicks ice, mee rebus, sup kambing (recommended, sebab tak hingat), dan lain lain. malangnye tak dapat makan ROJAK sebab dah habis. i_i. dan kami lepak hingga takde orang kat restoran. pastu manager dah pandang-pandang seolah-olah "hey, budak-budak ni taktau nak balik ke.'

pastu kitorang pun 'okayla, dah dah la tu, jombalik'

dan kami pun pulang. dan sedar-sedar je: 'eh dah sampai Gokula (tido sepanjang jalan)'

SEKIAN LAPORAN. roger and out.

special

2010-11-01T11:31:00.006+08:00

kali terakhir post ditulis adalah sebelum saya bertolak ke chennai

ye. saya dah pulang. a new experience of a new place where most india Malaysians came from.

nama lama Tamil Nadu=Madras. uuuhh. terus teringat Sejarah time sekolah. nostalgia wehh

tak. entri ni bukan pasal chennai. ni adalah random photos yang terperuk di dalam kamera yang rasenye kalau tak dimuat naik akan dicampak atau tercampak ke recycle bin.

satu satu ye. Chennai maybe next post. kalau tak dilanda busy. walaupun ada 2-3 test soon. tapi takpe. bajet buku kene hadap 24 jam. lol

so this is all about our jamuan kelas last time. untuk OBG. yelah. kitorang memang suka buat jamuan ala-ala potluck. yelah dengan cara ni jelah dapat makan makanan MALAYSIA yang best tanpa perlu berhempas pulas memasak sendiri.

erm, dan ni salah satu cara nak cukupkan attendance hari sabtu yang selalu berlobang tak cukup orang la. almaklum sindrom hari minggu

speaking of potluck, saya dan housemate saya masak: AYAM MASAK MERAH

gambar diambil setelah half dimakan so tak presentable sikit. eceh. cover cover.

get back to the picturesssss

menu lain2

jelatah

kek batik from above

ikan sweet sangat. eh sweet sour

eh cemane bole sesat gambar ni?

minuman tajaan

epal pie. by athira

banyak lagi tapi taksempat amik semua. kang amik semua tau2 je lesap semua makanan. dorang ni bukan boleh :B

okay dah. dah bawah ni bukan menu dah. bawah ni wajah2 girang tengah makan

serius takpayah thumbs up iwa!

oh jika anda ingin tahu attendance hari ni full ke taak?

TAK.

sebab beberapa orang yang malu-malu kucing nak datang sebab tak tau nak masak ape dan 2 orang yang ada urusan. haihh. takkan dihalau la kawan2. ~~cume perli siket2. eh tak tak. gurau gurau manja~~

tapi ni pun kire okay. sebab kalau tak hari sabtu hanyalah saya bersama 3-5 orang yang lain. hmmmmph

hihihi

2010-10-30T09:33:00.006+08:00

okayla tak jadi nak tutup blog. hikhikhik

anyway *terus lupekan* hari ini saya akan ke Chennai yang terletak di Tamil Nadu, India

so gonna go a little bit south today. what's interesting there?

kite tunggu.......

TAPI sebelum tu kene habiskan end posting exam OBG yang baru start baca pagi ni. malam tadi konon2 busy meeting bagai. heh. so, wish me a very BIG LUCK sebab.. yelah baru baca pagi ni.

sebagai penutup untuk bulan berposting OnG saya siarkan gambar2 sepanjang posting berlangsung. hehe.

dan NEXT will be SURGERY yang macam biase saya super excited, sebab doctor yang cool. *ahem*

p/s: tetibe teringat time ward round OnG hari tu, ade jugak ward round surgery at the same ward, punyelah impress dengan doc SURGERY sebab suare die super kuat, so nak tak nak kitorang lebih fokus ke surgery more than OnG. kesian doktor wanita, mentang-mentang suara die perlahan.

pastu nampak doktor PG terkulat2 kene soal dengan surgeon bahagian kidney dan bladder (tak ingat what it is called) dihadapan orang ramai. haha

*skang bole la gelak. nanti turn kau nadhirah. ha. rasakan.*

oh ye. gambarr...

semua yang kat bawah ni adorable bangat!

ni yang baby yang paling latest tengok. KUAT NANGIS!

time ni nurse tengh bersihkan baby. tetibe teringat mak kate lepas baby lahir nanti nurse mandikan. mane ade la mak, die lap lap je :B

muke excited plus gerun tengok orang beranakkkkkk. elele

post delivery baby in warmer

the hectic labor room. labor room ni PG je yang jage. consultant sume kat OPD. -_-"

baby pun taknak tengok muke ko iwa :B

okay the end of OnG chapter for 7th term. meet u in next semester.

next SURGERYY, okay. okay. tak payah semangat sangat kan.

the end

2010-10-28T19:45:00.003+08:00

i think this will be the end of my blogging era....

siapa je yang baca kan?

gonna concentrate more on studies. <--CHEWAHH *bluek*

dengan ini sepuluh jari disusun memohon maaf andai tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa, kot kot ade yang terasa. MINTAK MAAF SANGAT SANGAT.

sape sedih? cepat cakap sekarang! hehe

kesukaan

2010-10-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

sekarang ni memang feveret hobby=snek-ing

and yang paling best chewing gum yang mcm gule kapas tapi bile makan jadi chewing gum. chedap cangat. lol

die macam ni.

bile bukak taraaaa.

sweet sangat.

tapi tak 'sweet' macam exam obg tadi. heh -_-"

err. sori gambar webcam memang tebalik.

anyhow, i've started planning for my next ~~biggest~~ vacation ~~everr. so far (ni seriusover)~~

hope everything will go well. padahal cuti lambat lagi kot bulan 3.

where? stay tune. ~~bajet blog famous org follow. haha~~

kerana sehelai lab coat

2010-10-25T10:31:00.002+08:00

dan saya tertinggal bas di pagi yang murni ini. heh

sekarang sile merempat tumpang kawan2. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dan lebih terbaik. barang2 pun tertinggal kat bas tu.

okay. new scooter soon

a story

2010-10-23T15:46:00.003+08:00

do you remember last time I posted about me going to do Residential Permit (RP) after came back from Malaysia.

yeah, i successfully did it and got it at the same day. i burnt the whole day classes though the whole process of submitting the documents finished as early as 1030 as i went there early.

so yeah, went to Mahatma Gandhi road (MG road), do some window shopping after quite sometime not been there. you know, exam and stuff. tried every new things that look interesting along the road. haha. the yogurt ice cream was quite nice but costly. and also when to Manland of China. the dumplings there was so yummy. and pricey (so you know how broke i am now)

well, anywhoooo, Nando's will be opened soooooonn, people!

then headed to Garuda Mall, Homestop and also Lifestyle. I know we were killing time. so went to every single place that are near to the Police Commissioner office

at 5 we went back at the police station to get our RP. and yeah. DAH SIAP

until, 2 days after that, i checked my RP and realized that my SEX was Male. What the heck?

so, i told my friend in class hoping there is someone with the same problem as mine:

'weh, aku punye RP die tulis aku male okay. tension nye. takkan nak pegi balikkk'

and they were laughing. what? i don't think that's funny. its a typo for god sake!hishhh

so, being unsatisfied i told my housemates and friend. and all they did were only laughing out loud. APE YANG LAWAKNYE?

still, being unsatisfied 2 days back i went to see my so called penyelaras Malaysian kat college. (biasenye die yang uruskan pasal bende2 ni).

'sir, look at this. they type my sex wrongly. i am female but they wrote male' (i don't know why i said this, memangla aku perempuan, takyah explain kan? haha)

and he took the paper (RP) from me. 'see the photo? (photo of me). do you think its a male?hahahaha.' he also laughed!

and i stupidly answered 'no, this is female' heh

'so don't worry dear. this is not a problem. but you do one thing. if you have time just go to the counter and asked them to change it, okay?' <--cube bace slang india. hikhik

alahhhh. conclusion: i still have to go there. hish

so i went there yesterday.

as i reached there, i met a guy at the checking counter and told about my RP. and he laughed for god sake. and told his friends about that, and they all laughed. SERIOUSLY, IS THAT REALLY FUNNY?

so, i went to the counter and you know what he did:

THIS IS WHAT HE DID.

he only cancel the male and write female instead. and put a cop on that. that took only 2 minutes! lesser that the time i took to go there, hehhhh

on my way back in auto, i witnessed several scenes that surely made me learn something.

mase tunggu traffic light, biasela kan orang jual barang-barang. there's one guy yang jual mainan kereta. my auto driver was actually intended to buy that thing.die belek-belek mainan tu. alah sweet sangat. mesti nak beli untuk anak die. but ended up not buying it after asking the price. terus rasa kesian pastu nak je tolong belikan bagi kat anak die. kesian la tengok.

pastu kat india ni standard la ade mak nyah yang berpakaian saree sungguh menggelikan akan datang mintak duit kat every people especially man. stress okay. pastu bole tak nak mintak kat saya. siap pegang baju kite. saya pandang die buat muke garang, terus die takut. haha.

budak-budak jual surat khabar kat traffic light. kesian kecik2 tak dapat pegi sekolah. Alhamdulillah i was born in a family that can provide education for me.

so when i read this, i get mad? where is the justice, man?

well, this is india.

O n G

2010-10-20T12:53:00.004+08:00

so yesterday was my turn to present case to the doctor

i went up to the labor room earlier to pick up case from doctor.

to my surprise the whole labor room was emptied and when i asked it was due to some painting work to be done there. so i did asked 'so where is the labor room then'

it was in front of the original labor room. the condition was so bad, that i don't even think somebody will get delivered there. heh

ironically,as i entered the so called labor room, there was a lady laid on a bed in a process of labor. the room was so small, that only me and my friend with a nurse and a doctor can fit in it with great difficulty to move around. minutes after that, a paediatrician came to handle the delivered baby.

the lady was lying on a bed covered by a sheet. the water proof one. and the amniotic fluid filled the surface of the sheet that half of the ladies butt sank with the water.

this was not right. and i can already see the baby's head as i stepped closer. the mother struggled to push it out and finally the baby came out.

unfortunately, it will never gonna be a good news for the mother. the baby was so small, size of my hand and i can see frustration from the doctor's side. there was no crying heard and the doctor expected the baby died already and she just cut the cord and as soon as the nurse showed the baby to the mother, i can see her crying weakly, with sweat all over her face.

it was sad, i felt the room became quite for a second, and i can feel the change in the environment.

as the sister showed the baby to the mother, i can see blood flowing form the cord of the fetus, then i realized that the doctor didn't clamp the fetal cord. then the sister told the doctor to clamp it. it was really saddening to see the fetal blood flow onto the mother's cloth.

as soon as she saw the baby, the tired face of her looked at the doctor as if she said: 'please doctor, save the baby..' she was even too tired to speak.

the doctor thought the baby died until sister felt the chest for heartbeat. though it was very weak, the baby was handed to the paediatrician for follow up

after 10 minutes in the labor room, i was so curious to see what happened to the baby that i headed to next room. there, i can see 2 paediatricians on their mission of saving the baby.

then i realized how sacred my future profession is. saving people's life is really a noble thing to do.

the baby was so small, that the doctor just have to push the chest with 2 fingers to pump the heart. ~~that was cute~~

then, my other friend came told me that they already got a case for me in the ward. i went out from the labor room heavily as i had more important duty to do

1/2 hour later, my friend approached me while i was taking the history and told me

'nad, ko tau tak, yang baby tadi tu twin. pastu dua dua mati. sedih. mak die nangis gile'

'INNALILLAHIWAINNAILAIHIRAJIUN'

no wonder i saw the mother's tummy was still big after the first baby delivered.

my other friend did cried softly. i was shocked but it was expected.

what an experience!

tough but reality

2010-10-17T11:15:00.002+08:00

12.30am, Bangalore India

*phone ringing*

i answered

me: assalamualaikum, ha A kenape

A: wsalam, nadh takde ape. kami cume nak betau, bapa kami dah takde

me: oh yeke. A sabar. takziah asma. ni kat mana ni?

A: kami still kat LCCT nih. tula terkilan jugak tak sempat nak jumpa. sikit je lagi.

me: *terdiam. seriously speecless, i can't imagine me in her place*

so the conversation continued for several minutes..

seriously i dont know how to console someone who is in his/her tough time. especially when it come to death. because i know it hurts to lose someone you love. ~~well, i still remember the time i lost my grandfather ii_ii~~. i just can say 'sabarlah' hoping it will help.

well, A's father died of myocardial infarction which was lately noticed that he only assumed the chest pain he got during past 2 years was only a normal heartburn. but unfortunately it is not. the heart damaged badly (whole heart), that the IJN cant do anything to help.

i remember my grandfather died of the same reason. so people, please.. please do your checkup regularly as soon as u feel any discomfort because early detection gives better prognosis.

Takziah Asma. May he'll be placed among mu'minin and solihin.

ALFATIHAH.

going serious

2010-10-14T21:44:00.004+08:00

ha. dah dua minggu berlalu. bile nak start ni?

new schedule i guess. penat sangat sebab memang takde rehat langsung. sempat solat je tengahhari. ni pun bawak bekal so sempat la makan bekal dalam kelas before tunggu lecturer masuk. pathetic i know.

bus schedule pun dah gile. thinking of buying my own vehicle. a car or a scooter. terukk sangat. kalau tak, memang tak sempat catch up every class.

imagine habis posting kat hospital pukul 12.15 nak catch up kelas pulak pukul 1 kat kolej yang akan amik masa 20 minit kalau naik bas since bas ikut jalan jauh dan traffic india kan. ha amik kau sampai tepat2 nak solat. pastu bas nak datang ikut suke die je, tak tahu org kelam kabut nak klas. die siap bole makan2 kat kolej. chittt. dan lebih cemerlang kalau kene tinggal bas terus sebab posting yang terlebih2 rajin nak buat kelas panjang kan. ha silelah naik auto. KOS. KOS.

even ade my friend yang solat dalam bus sebab nak makan. laparr kot. atau makan dalam bas.

haihhhhhhhhhhh. tapi ekonomi meleset betul la lately. saving menyusut dengan drastik. haihhhh again. padahal kau tak reti bawak scooter pun kan nad. berangan je lebih. nak belajar pun takde mase. kawan2 sume busyyyy. takpe confident tu penting, haha

being angry at commed, assuming it a person. i will give him A VERY BIG HIT and PUNCH for causing my life in a terrible mess. seriously..

and lately commed was all about data and statistic which was so annoying as u have to do 3 freaking grafts every class with calculations and RIDICULOUS comments that we had to make for every single graft. haih. tension ni. tension ni. dahla graft yang pelik2 macam semi log graft. ha ni first time gune graft ni. tak pakai pun time math dulu. dan pertama kalinya digunakan di dalam commed. oh terima kasih atas ilmu yang lebih ini. pastu segala protaktor, compass, calculator, colour pencil macam dah kembali ke sekolah pulak kan. i mean do we really need to know this. skang ni type je, komputer dah buat. ~~dasar pemalas~~. do we?

i mean its not THAT crucial for the time being unless you are gonna live in this incredible country in the future ~~kan dah start nak kutuk india~~. seriously.

okayla. at least not to be studied in THAT detail that take 2.5 years of your life. quite exaggerating. i know. tapi kamu paham kan? kan?

can u imagine a class that was occupied with you trying to finish up your so call ridiculous homework yang melampau banyak yang lebih2. and you still have many other subjects to be studied for your finals. haihhhhh. padahal subject ni takkan dikira untuk tahun ni tapi carry forward untuk tahun depan. that means 2.5 years of commed. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so be grateful juniors, you don't have to study commed!

huh. i'm so sorry blog for polluting you with my complaints that will never end if it comes to COMMED. sorry to break my promise to stop complaining, but since you are the only one who listening and understanding me so well HERE, so bear it mr blog. I'm so sorry. you were made for me after all. hehe

so here are the complaints. any feedback. nahh. i don't need it. :(

Bangalore and reality

2010-10-08T09:40:00.002+08:00

i have returned to Bangalore, the city of knowledge (for me) on Monday.

and now it's already Friday. huh? times flew fast.

had a talk with MARA and the university. it was the long one. haihhhh

and today i will go to the police commissioner to do my RP... FINALLY

hek hek.hope everything go smoothly. so wish me luck!

pegi sujud syukur sekarang!

2010-10-06T01:35:00.002+08:00

'N, aku punye buku obs and gyne ade kat ko kan?'

*message sent*

*message received*

'yup'

*calling from: N*

me: hello (jangan tiru aksi ini, sila bagi salam)

N: ha nad buku ko bla blablablablbalba

me: ha ok la. saje tanye nanti bile2 aku amik sebab aku dah stat posting OBG

N: *suddenly the killer started* ko dah tengok markah patho? (i don't even want to know any hints, any mimik muke, any sound of terukness of my markah)<--gile pathetic

me: aaaaaaaa. aku tak nak tahu dan tengok. baik ko jangan betau aku ......... (tak sempat habis cakap)

N: lahhhh.tak dela. ko pnye same dengan aku la.

me: lahhhhhh. dahla. alang-alang ko dah bagi hint ni baik kau bagitau je markah aku (nada kecewe)

N: lah ko ** la.

me: oh! aku lulus. wah kene sujud syukur ni. alhamdulillah. (if you know the marks, it is not memberangsangkan pun, but considering my performance during the exam with kertas koyak, tinggal soalan segala macam, IT WAS so relieved to know that i PASSED)

so yeah. the result of my 2nd IA was OUT! though for only 3 out of 4 subjects i am taking for this phase. and yet i am so grateful that those papers that i expected to ****, yet i passed. not with flying colours though.

haha. tapi oklah kan bukan target pun those papers, cume taknak fail la, buruk la rekod I. LOL

and i kept telling my friend, that saya sangat tak yakin dan akan sujud syukur if i passed those 2 papers,( so sile la ye cik Nadhirah) dan saya memang takkan tengok markah sampailah dah basi dah cerita cerita result, baru nak tengok.

but since saya ada kawan yang sangat 'mengambil berat' dan nak sangat beritahu markah eventhough saya dah keep mention:

"aku taknak tahu markah aku, korang pliss jangan beritahu, buat mimik muke ke, buat nada, bagi hint etc. aku tak sanggup. biarla basi dulu bende2 ni" ye saye tahu saye over dan poyo.

tapi diorang mungkin takdapat menahan diri dari bagi hint yang selalunye menyebabkan saya lagi nak tahu markah.

so statement diatas terpakse diabaikan dengan ayat sambungan:

"since ko dah bagi hint baiklah sekiranya ko bagitau je markah aku, haihhhh (nada kecewa)"

tapi seriusly saya tak tengok pun markah2 tu sendiri lagi sampai sekarang. ~~padahal sebab tak naik department pun hari ni. lol~~

tapi memang tak sanggup melihat keb****an diri sendiri bile nanti kalau TERnampak markah org lain, pastu terus rasa lagi down pastu lagi malas study (haha alasan), so niat untuk tengok markah mungkin akan ditunda ke satu masa yang tertentu. ni memang over. i know.

padahal selama ni takde la amik tahu sangat markah org lain. so maybe bole je kot tengok. heh.
-_-"

haha oh for your information my MBBS course have 3 phase:

1st phase: 1 year (passed)
2nd phase 1.5 year (current)
3rd phase: PART1: 1 year
PART 2: 1 year

and 1 year of internship, macam kerje konon. so that will make my duration of studies 5.5 years.

but still...there's rumors that we'll be graduating earlier, as the univ probably will shorten the internship in India to 6 months. but lets forget about uncertain things.

so every phase we have so called Final Professional MBBS examination that will be 60% of our 100 marks.
so 60% MBBS Professional exam
10/15% IAs (not sure) hhaha
the rest includes continuous assessment (seminar, tutorials, quiz etc) ni pun tak bape sure. kene check balik. haha

so yeah. i'm ~~bising-bising~~ talking about the 10-15% marks only. ahaha
'only' la sangat. heh
but based on seniors, the internal assessments (IAs) is the one that help very much in the final evaluation. sebab final sangat unpredictable. portion 1.5 years kan?

we have 3 IAs
1st IA: dah lepas
2nd IA: yang tengah bising2 ni la
3rd IA: ni macam trial la, masuk sume portion dalam that phase. cuak tak. cuak tak

3rd IA diikuti dengan Final Professional Exam. (yang selalunye time ni sume org lembik dah), too many examss......

so markah untuk 10-15% ni pulak dikira depends pada department la, tapi mostly amik best of 1st atau 2nd IA + 3rd IA adalah wajib dikira sekali (sangat terseksa jiwa raga)

pening kan? skang tau dah betapa pening nye sistem pendidikan bagi negara yang menjadi tuan rumah komenwel tahun ini. ehh itu cerita lain

so basically bole la nak ~~main~~ target2 ~~kalau berani~~. untuk 1st and second IA sebab die amik salah satu.

tapi nasihat ku, silala buat bersungguh2 1st IA, sebab 2nd IA sangat unpredictable dan susah dan banyak amat dan tensi dan busy pada sem itu dan raya dan nak balik dan padan muke. erkk

3rd IA memang tak dapat nak kate ape la kan. wajib dikire. so even die 100X lebih tensi dan banyak, hadapkan saje. bak kate ayam.

oh ye. exam 3rd IA diawalkan ke 7/2. lagi 4 bulan. okay bye -_-"

ohh

2010-10-04T07:55:00.003+08:00

akan ke lcct very soon. haihh

habis sudah cutikuuuu

tak kisah pun balik sebenarnye, tapi malas:

1. nak buat RP (residential permit), yang amatlah rumit kene deal dengan pakcik polis yang berbudi bahasa sangat kat india......

2. nak tengok RESULT. serius tak sedap hati sangat2. langsung takde keyakinan. kalau tak fail pun dah boleh sujud syukurr. ohhhhhhhhhh

ohh cuak sangat ini. serius tak nak tahu.

we learn from mistakes we made kan.

ape pun kene study hard untuk 3rd IA dan FINAL yang akan jadi teramatlah killer.

whole 1.5 years portion to be read with only 4 months left full of classes. CHAIYOK!!

Malaysia-ku gemilang

2010-09-29T19:08:00.002+08:00

well, 2 in Malaysia already. hoping to meet up some friend but they are not here anyway. sad sad

nilah kalau kawan2 belaja jauh2. bole tak blaja dekat bangi je

ceh padahal cuti kamu itu yang selalu tak kene masa -_-"

anyway. kawan-kawan yang ade open house silela ajak saya. always being excited to go. hehe

and yeah Dubai trip was awesome but SO FREAKING HOT place to go. so unless u are very rich to rent a car and go from place to place (for puteri lilin out there), DONY GO HERE!

lol. it was not that bad actually since almost all the places there are air-conditioned including the bus station. yeah.

but seriously one thing we learnt from here is:

BE RICH AND GO TO DUBAI

everything is so expensive that watermelon juice in kedai yang cikai-cikai will cost you rm10.

and to make it even worst, all, i repeat ALL of the people here wajib to wear those super expensive brand like LV Gucci Coach Prada and the list goes on. they made us felt so 'humble'

haha. an even the maid wear those brand

well, these are ony a glimpse of Dubai that i tell you, will be writing more about it. hopefully. if i am so rajin la. which according to my mood recently, i am not. now i am writing for the sake of updating my old lame blog. ngehhe

so tungguuu

p/s: oh yeah pictures of my Dubai some of them were uploaded by friends and tagged in facebook. (well, that describe my laziness more clearly) so do visit my facebook for my updates. btw, i am still the old thin friend of yours. hahaha

till we meet again.

holiday

2010-09-20T18:44:00.002+08:00

here i am still in Bangalore India. while others enjoying their holiday in Malaysia. but i dont feel anything. just a plain feeling.

since last 2 days, i loss my appetite. i don't eat from the morning but i dont feel like eating
and i think i've lost few kgs already..i dont wanna become anorexic!

so tonight i'll be going for a trip to dubai. pray for our safety because this will be those amazing race kinda holiday cause we'll travel independently. hahahaha. over. KATE STUDENT KAN= berjimat cermat. WE'LL SEEE

so yeah. hopefully everything go well as we planned because slight change will affect our packed schedule. and with high cost of living there, tak mau la sesat menyesat ke ape ke. duit pun takat2 hidung je. MARA CEPATLA BAGI ELAUN. ceh pakai duit rakyat. maaf rakyat jelata.

i'm still worry about this loss-of-appetite-feeling. because not just that, i also feel unhealthy and yesterday i caught in fever, that i ate panadol in empty stomach and i sleep and got up by the sound from my stomach. too much right.

so, hopefully this uneasy feeling willl go so that i can enjoy my holiday maximally. :)

post exam

2010-09-16T22:54:00.005+08:00

yeah it had been many many many weekss

yep. exam people. EXAM

the BEST part is, its finally over.

the WORST part is, i did it BADLY.

real bad. that i can't forgive myself i_i. ~~ececeh lebih2~~

blank for pharmaco. yes blank. i juct can't remember anything. the drugs got mixed up. THERE WAS DRUG INTERACTION ON BY BRAIN ALSO. HAHAHHA

did a stupid mistake for patho and only realized it when there was only 5 minutes left. and i want to cancel my previous answer but end up scratching my answer booklet. *SIGH

this is REAL people. REAL!

for your information, i also have the same brain as yours. same feeling. we share the same feeling of nervousness, depression, and FRUSTRATION. ~~statement meng AVOID ayat dicop berunsur kepoyoan~~

PATHETIC TAK JADI SAYA. hahahaha

so, dear mr blog who always believe me.ngeheeh

so pray hard for me. may Alla grant me the best because i'm only hoping for the best. ~~ayat pasrah~~

okay now. good good news

for me onlyla. haha

will be going to Dubai sooooooooooon.

remember my post

so, i finally realizing it earlier than expected. :B

talent

2010-09-05T11:31:00.003+08:00

AMARAN: entry ini berbaur duniawi. sila jauhkan diri anda

talent is a gift, i must say.

and i ENVY people with so much talent.

cooking, sewing, talking, talking (yeah), blogging, making poem, MUSICIAN. yeahh

HOW COME THEY SO PANDAI MAIN SEMUA. YA. SEMUA ALAT MUZIK. ni jealous ni!

i wonder what is my talent. -_-"

YOUTUBE

youtube ni memang tempat orang freelancer nak tunjuk talent masing masing.

serius. and i must say that i like this site much more than facebook. eh. facebook memang tak suke.ehe

oh saye takdelah yang jenis main tengok je video orang pastu membazir mase tengok video itu ini. mostly, orang tu mesti dah ade CHANNEL yang established and kire jadi follower ar. ececeh. padahal tengok skali sekala je.

say it, cooking, sewing, makeup-ing, drawing etc. type je. BERJUTA keluar. and they really can make money with it. ni lagi jealous ni.

one of my favorite vloggers kevjumba channel. die ni kaye sebab vlogging. siap bole buat charity lagi. muda lagi kot. ~~tapi skang video die dah tak best~~ lagi... banyak la. tak larat nak senarai.

and recently i jump into one of my favorite musician in youtube (suara die sedap ok dan memang talented dan memang.. eh eh). wa cakap lu kaya woh die ni. channel die dah beribu orang subscribe. and he's not even an artist commercially. tapi penah collaborate dengan the fray etc.

he even writes his own songsss yang dijual di itunes (ini lagi satu yang menyebabkan die kaya) banyak ok dan sedap juga. haih. pendek kate memang berbakat. ~~tapi yang sleknye die minat Taylor Swift~~

balik kepada cerita

he currently helding a music competition called Tyler Ward's USA LIVE longe competition.

dan tiba-tiba saya jadi takde keje pastu nak tengoklah entry orang yang masuk. ada yang hampeh (oh ini biase) tapi mostly sangat AWESOME. saya memang sangat suke tengok orang berbakat ni.

and bile tengok entry ni rase cam nak menangis

CEMANE DIE NI BOLEH MAIN SUME INSTRUMENT NIH. TAK ACI.

ohh..how people can be so talented!

joke of the dayyy

2010-09-01T19:22:00.004+08:00

situation: nak marah supermarket dekat rumah sebab hantar barang lambat! haha overrr

me: hello? city supermarket?

CS: ha. yes yes

me: i've made an order just now and i need it now. can u send it fast fast

CS: ha? fast ~~serius blurr gile~~

me: yes. faster faster

CS: ha. faster?? one second madam. *bercakap dengan org sekeliling* ~~biasenye sebab tak paham kitorg nak ape~~

the CS then passed the phone to his friend

me: *cakap dengan housemate*. hahahahahahahhaha. mesti die ingat aku nak order 'fast'. mane ade bende *fast*

mane ade bende name fast. die ni punnn. cuak sangat ke. lol

hilarious ok. saya tak tahann sampai pass phone kat org lain

the other CS:ha. hello madam

my friend: i want you to send my order FAST! FAST! QUICK!

the end.

and today the same thing happen

my friend: hello CS. i want to make delivery order. 30 eggs bla bla bla.. send it FAST!

CS: fast? what is fast??

AGAIN! they don't even learn!

5 hari lagi!!

2010-08-31T18:33:00.003+08:00

oh cuti cuti ni kalau duduk mengadap buku pun boleh muntah tahu.

cuti is cuti

tapi kalau dah esok nak exam, TERPAKSA la juggak. ceh cakap deras

banyak sangat ni drug chart segala macam nak kene hafal. ye. hafal. ni sume salah diri sendiri yang tak nak baca buku pharmaco untuk theory. kalau dah baca kan lebih senang.

nah kau.. *tumbuk diri sendiri*

cakap pasal theory. serius weh aku tak baca banaykk gile lagi. CVS, chemotherapy segala macam.

terpaksa cakap kat sini sebab kalau betau kawan-kawan bukan dorang nak caye.

nanti stat la dialog:

"aku tak cayelah kau nad. sekali kau dah habis baca"

atau. atau

"takpe nad kau lain. kau senang ingat. aku tau kau bole"

dah malas dah nak menepis semua dialog2 tu.

aku diamkan saja

padahal dalam otak tuhan yang tahu, ade ape.

pharmaco tu, baru stat bace chemo halfway. tu pun dah tercampur baur semua drug. amik kau.

bile kawan main soal2 habis blur. kene bace lagi. tahla.

oklah. tak mahu cakap banayk. esok exam pun tak habis baca. ape nak jadi.

~~decided to leave one station in pharmaco prac. tak sempat kot nak bace semua. cair otak. ni pun dah nak termuntah-muntah dah. nasib baik puase tau.~~

p/s: oh ye. berkenaan tajuk. yeah can't wait 5 more days!! =)))))

faham tak.

2010-08-26T20:16:00.003+08:00

faham tak perasaan die bile kene SEMUA permintaan kene REJECT 4 kali berturut2 dalam masa 2 hari on YOUR on face dimana bende tu kau lakukan dengan bersusah payahnya.

BANYAK HAL TAK SELESAI.

i don't want to blame the people.

maybe its me.

maybe i'm just not good with words.

ya Allah, permudahkan urusanku. :'(

ini dah kronik nih.....?

2010-08-25T08:29:00.007+08:00

PERHATIAN: This is not a complaint.

bile nak dekat exam. mulelah gelabah itu ini. ~~tapi still nak tido awal.~~ haihhh

oh terasa sebegitu busy semenjak dua menjak ni especially di bulan Ramadhan. time become so precious.

mana taknya. pergi ke kelas pukul 730 balik sampai rumah pukul 5. dah macam orang berkerja lah pulak

dan semalam adalah kemuncak kepenatan saya. tak tahulah kenapa

oh ya semalam saya sudah start posting di department baru. guess what?

THE COOLEST DEPARTMENT WITH COOLEST DOCTOR.

..................its SURGERY babeyh.

haha. macam saya cakap dulu-dulu doc surgery memang sangat lepak dan coool!

memang bergaye lah ~~eceh. lebih2 plak~~

especially sekarang nih entah mane datang banyakkk sangat doktor baruuu. YANG LEBIH COOOL KOT.

hahaha. serius lebih lebih.
dulu, minus PG ade macam 6 je consultant surgery. ni skang consultant dah bertambah lagi 2 ke 3 orang. dahlah baik2 semua. ahemm.

so, I AM excited.

so the first case we got to see yesterday was about a baby yang the anus is not in the right place. basically its congenital (from birth). so one of the PG was doing some procedure on the baby under one of the new consultant's observation, putting tube into the anus and i don't really get into the procedure because i came when the procedure was half way done.

initially i just observe from outside of the room, while the doctors doing it till he called me to go inside. so i called my friends and go inside (cara selamat taknak kene tanye lebih2. hahah).

okaylah he did explain the procedure, but i can't remenber. and then the consultant passed the torch to me and said "okay, now you see yourself"

and i was the one who was at the front row. so yeah i came first.

and then i passed to my friend so that everybody can have a loook.

and then came my other friend's turn which came out to be DISASTER. hahahhaha

Sebaik sahaja kawan saya cuba untuk menghalakan lampu towards the anus, PG tu tarik tube tu from the anus, and there you go...........all the tahi tu tersepai memancut2. and the PG and all of my friend sempat mengelak. but, poor my pity friend, she just tak sempat sebab tergamam. and banyak jugaklah kene white coat die. + her purse yang kat dlm coat. hahahahha

and it came out that everybody in the room was laughing including the doctors. HILARIOUS.

and while my friend bersihkan lab coat to semua kat sink, the doctor even taught my friend how to clean it properly sambil buat gaye segala.

and one of the doctor said:
"i think somebody got present from the babyyyy"

haha

scene di hospital berakhir. TAMAT.

balik rumah pukul 5. solat segala dah nak bersiap pergi iftar kat surau pukul 630.

ade performance semua so habis agak lambat, pukul 8 gitu.tapi saya still nak balik rumah before pergi solat terawih.

pastu pergi balik pukul815. (haha surau depan rumah je)

saya tak sedar pun saya begitu penat.

sampailah solat terawih yang diinduce dengan bacaan yang sangat perlahan dan syahdu......

BOLE TAK FIRST TIME SAYA TERTIDO TIME BERDIRI. malu seh!

dah nak terjatuh baru tersedar, pastu tegak balik, cover-cover sambung solat.

selalunye takde lah sampai tertido time berdiri. ~~time bace doa tu pernahlah hehehe~~
tersengguk2 tu biase la kan

ni kalau berdiri pun boleh tertido, ni dah KRONIK.

loooking at this saya terus teringat zaman sekolah dulu, saya tak pernah tido dalam kelas ke, ceramah ke ape ke. (saya tak duduk asrama), so bile tengok bukan main budak asrama ni tido dalam kelas lah, ceramah la, time sujud time qiam la.. saya rasa PELIK. serius pelik. saya memang tak dapat imagine la saya tido time dalam kelas. sebab memang tak mengantuk

tapi bila sekarang kene kat batang hidung sendiri. haha baru paham

so, saya mula fikir ape puncanya? takkan lah saya penat sangat atau kurang tido or stress. TAHLA

tapi satu lagi perubahan yang saya dapat tengok ialah ENCIK JERAWAT dah berani naik kat muka sekarang. ni pun saya pelik. sebab ape ek?

zaman sekolah tak pernah pun jadi macam ni. nak kata stress taklah stress lagi (ke tak sedar diri dah stress). sebab dah biase exam setiap hari so, penat lah kot nak stress setiap hari. haha

ke sebenarnye saya memang stress tapi tak sedar sebab ia berlaku setiap hari, so dah jadi immune. atau dah develop tolerance kat stress. hahaha

so, bile tanye kat kawan: "eh, bole tak aku tertido time solat tadi. time berdiri pulak tu. haihs. kenapa ni.'

kawan: "mungkin kau penat sangat kot. ataupun ko stress'

saya: 'tahla aku rase sekarang aku takde stress sangat. dengan jerawat segala macam'

kawan: mungkin kau tak stress, tapi badan kau yang stress, penat kot.

saya: (dalam hati). mungkin jugak

logic la jugak sebab time sekolah dulu. SERIUS. tak pernah stress kot. macam exam pun just amik je. takdelah nak stress ke ape ke. yelah exam esok.. baca harini. sempatt punye. and i still can remember me and my friend bole tak pusing dewan exam sembang-sembang dulu, before masuk exam time SPM, padahal orang lain sibuk nak baca buku kan.
nak cakapnye betapa saya tidak stress nye dulu.

sebab tu, saya pelik bila kawan-kawan cerita pengalaman time nak spm. study itu ini. because i can't remember that i was doing the same thing. takde lah stay up segala macam. ni..ade yang study pakai lampu koridor la. itula. inila

what i can remember is bile esok nak exam, petang tu baca buku (lepas tengok telenovela hehe) sampai malam pukul 930 paling lambat. ni dah kira paling dahsyat. haha. ~~baru sedar rupenye best duduk rumah~~

maybe one of the reason is saya duduk rumah. so takdela rase stress ke ape ke. lagi-lagi bile geng sekepale, MEMANG LEPAK AH ZAMAN SEKOLAH. ha. ni yang nak miss zaman sekolah ni.

so if stress is the answer for all the problems i am facing now, i will blame this course.lol. ~~or shud i blame me for taking this course.hahah..AHHH~~
MBBS, why you are doing this to me? what is my sin towards you?

so, kalau nak test hipotesis ni kene la buat experiment kan?

NAK TUKAR COURSE LAH! kite tengok ape yang jadi.heheh

bayyy behhh

2010-08-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

first of all, CONGRATULATION to my hamidians batchmates, hazirah and halim for new comer in your family!!

wahh. jelesnye. nak baby. nak baby

babies are just so adorable!

look at this

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1227575495369

btw, during my ophthal exam in the hospital this evening, while i was waiting for my turn for the exam, i met a baby who was sooooooooo cute. but too bad i didn't get to take any picture of him/her because i was too shy. hehehehhe

and it was EXAM okay for god sake. sempat lagi nak main2 baby segala macam. heh

BABY

2010-08-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

nope. im not gonna talk about 'baby' song from Justin Bieber or something cheesy here. :b

NO!

this is real baby. okay the baby...baby.

BAYI.

baby is such a cute creature that Allah made in this Earth.

such an exaggerating introduction, kan. haha

well..

knowing that my batchmate at school gonna have their own baby soon, i SUDDENLY want a baby jugak la.

jealous nye. ade baby nak main-main.

oleh itu, cepatlah kawan-kawan kawen nak main dengan baby.

paediatrics?

not fun lah main ngn baby sini.

sume make me sad, sakit itu ini..

i wish i have baby waiting for me whenever i return from school. such a stress relieving-lah ~~except time die crying plus cuci tahi sume tulah~~ LOL

tooo much asking, huh? hehehhe

why choose this?

2010-08-18T19:55:00.005+08:00

i found this video INTERESTING enough that I can't help but sharing it with you! :b

this is funny though, but we have to find something that we can learn from it.

why make life so difficult?

why he chose to be like this this?

tak payah bace

2010-08-17T18:01:00.002+08:00

nak masak ape ye hari ni?

masak nasi sudahh la kan.

bila mood baik

2010-08-15T11:20:00.003+08:00

bangun pagi makan sahur nasi berlauk sotong dan tauhu sumbat yang sedappp.

best jugak kalau ayam (nama orang) mengidammm. mengidam la lagi... hehehe

pastu solat subuh kat surau. ada pengumuman suruh turun pukul 730 kat playground (bawah apartment) ada sambutan merdeka.

what? sambutan merdeka. bukan ke malaysia merdeka lambat lagi.

ngehehe TODAY IS INDEPENDENCE DAY UNTUK NEGARA INDIA.

semoga India ~~terus~~ lebih maju. eh. eh

balik balik siapkan slide presentation ophthal untuk klas isnin.

pukul 7 bergerak ke pasar. otw nak keluar dari apartment, jumpa pakcik dengan belon2 segala dok menghias playground kat bawahhh. semangat wohhh. belon tu colour bendera india, hijau kuning oren. kiut sangat. banyak kot. kat semua pokok die letak.

tiba-tiba jumpa sorang pakcik india ni and he asked: are you going? (sambil pointing dekat playground.

saya dan kwan: ohh. yes yes

pdahal nak pegi pasar. tah sempat ke tak.

dalam hati: wahh adejugak tempe yang mesra alam walaupun nampak muka orang kaya. (yes kat sini kuat sikit kasta)

so, otw pegi pasar standard la pasang bendera sini sana kan. merdeka..

banyak lah gerai-geraii jual barang berang berunsur bendera.

yang paling comel, hand band yang ada 3 colour bendera tu. kiut sangat. sebab budak-budak yang pakai lah.

so, balik pasar. majlis dah habis. ohh 'too bad'

masuk gate apartment, tiba tiba pakcik guard tegur :good morning madam ............. (yang seterusnya tak dengar)

tak penah kot pakcik guard ni tegur dengan muka yang senyum lebarr. selalunya keje diorang jaga swimming pool tak kasi kitorang mandi.. oh ini cerita lain

rupa-rupanya pakcik guard baru..

saya pun balas balik: ohhh, good morrrning (nada ceria semacam)

sampai rumah bukak mesej

from: kak ***

message: jemput lah bukak puasa rumah akak hari ini.

OH YEAH!

oh baru sedar rupenye post ini tiada motif. okay bye.

WHAT IS THIS?

2010-08-13T18:08:00.002+08:00

apakah. setiap sejam black out nih. ini sudah melampau

kawan-kawan, nak tau tak kat Bangalore ni blackot 2 jam sekali means. sejam blackout. sejam ade balik. dan ia berlangsung sepanjang hari. apakah?

inibermakna dalam sehari kamu akan berada dalam kegelapan selama 12 JAM! APAKAH?

dan dan dengar cerita BIL LETRIK DISINI NAIK MENDADAK.

DOUBLE WOH. bukan singgit 2 inggit.

apakah?

dahlah bil kat sini memang sangat-sangat-sangat mahal. tak berkadar langsung dengan perkhidmatan yang diberikan. so what did we pay for, wahai encik elektrik?

imagine, my previous bill was rs1000++ (rm 100++), apa akan jadi dengan bil saya lepas ni. tidakkkkkkkk. double kah. you do the calculation! I WANT THIS TO BE FIXED!

yang ajaibnya, mereka menepati waktu pula dalam hal-hal nak gelapkan rumah orang ni.

sharp pukul 2 takde, pukul 3 ada balik. dan begitulah ia berlangsung seterusnya. macam chips more. tapi chips more sedap.

dan ya. kami tarawih dalam keadaan sedemikian. ~~yang ni tak boleh komplen~~

oh ini bermakna sy ada 1/2 jam je lagi nak online. so tak nak buang masa. bye2

YA ALLAH BERIKANLAH AKU KESABARAN DI BULAN RAMADHAN YANG MULIA NI.

p/s: kan dah ter komplen. hikhik. i broke my own promise. ish2

selamat datang madrasah tarbiah!

2010-08-11T22:10:00.002+08:00

salam al mubarak semua. especially family dan rakan-rakan di Malaysia. buat kami di Bangalore kami akan mula berpuasa lewat sehari. so petang tadi memang habis pulun makan la. ;b

tengahari tadi, seusai praktikal forensic medicine tepat 1145 pagi. (ada klas lagi lepas ni. tapi ini waktu rehat untuk solat dan makan)

ogie: nak makan mane ni? aku nak makan sedap-sedap.
saya: tak tahula. nak makan sedap pegi Mantri la. haahhahaha *mantri=mall yang 15 minit dari kolej
ogie: hahaha. gile ape. oklah. aku nak makan KFC jelah
saya: weh aku nak makan sushi la. jom lah 'Shiro' (nama kedai makan). yang 1/2 jam dari kolej. hahah. *nada bergurau*
ogie: hahahaha

kami pun berjalan. tiba-tiba.....

ogie: jomlah weh makan shiro. esok pun dah ramadhan. makan sedap-sedap sikit.
saya: haha. serius ke. JOMLAH. nampak gayenye bunk la klas commed kite. kihkihkih
(saya jarang ponteng okay. ni 1st time untuk sem ni. *nada skema*. eh ke second time. hihi)

dan inilah tempat lunch sehari sebelum ramadhan kami....

****************************************************************************************

azan maghrib pada 11 ogos 2010 kedengaran bermakna bulan Ramadan yang dirindui sudah tiba.

aku cuma berharap aku dapat mengutip mutiara-mutiara yang berharga didalam bulan penuh keberkatan ini.

sungguh.

moga Allah beri kekuatan. amin.

brand new =D

2010-08-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

of my almost 8 years of using this id, it is SAD to leave it :(

but because it makes me look so immature,(yelah 12 years old punye id kot) and soo malu nak put it on the contact email address whenever i fill in forms....

hahaha

hence, for those who knows me personally, feel free to add my new yahoo id in your YM list, though i seldom use it :b

so, i technically will stop using the old id. ~~except for facebook-ing. ngehehe~~

anyway this is my new email

nadhirahib@yahoo.com

wahhh, i feel so much matang-lah. lols.

and yeah. the gmail account is still on.

goshup@gmail.com

......for blogging purpose. lol

so, bye-bye immaturity, and hye good brand new life. haha

ffffffuuuuuuuhhhh

2010-08-06T20:33:00.003+08:00

wahh. lame ni tak update. hehe

well, been busy lately. technically and emotionally.

trying so hard not to complain much about my daily life. ngehe.

so the solution is: avoid writing when your ~~condition~~ emotion is not stable. hehe

malu wohh kawan2 bace. :b

okay UPDATE UPDATE!

nadhirah is now posted in Ophtalmology department. full stop. kang nak tulis lebih-lebih terus ter komplen pulak.

well, something actually initiated me to change my 'complaining-so-much' behavior

watch this!

little briefing:

this was last 2 years. as he said, he was diagnosed with..i think.. cancer of the liver. i'm not sure which type. but i'm pretty sure that the cancer had metastasized, so you can guess which stage his cancer was. got married at 42 blessed with few children, (can't remember how many)

the sad thing is that, he was dead last year at 48 years old.

the inspiring thing is, what he had done with his life throughout his 48 years of life.

i love the last word he gave at the end of the lecture. awesome i tell you..

and one of them is about complaining. i wish i can quote but unfortunately i can't remember the exact sentence. ~~dasar short term~~ :(

btw, for more detailed version of his story, you can buy his book written by HIM, entitled 'the last lecture' by Randy Pausch. this book lagi best la sebab die cerita disebalik tabir his lecture dan kisah-kisah lain dengan lebih detail.

saya tak baca pun. ngehe. but kawan saya baca dan die kate buku tu pun sedih jugak. the story of his family is included. how he met his wife, what his wife said to him during his last lecture (the video). sedih

okay la. bocor siket. this lecture told us about how we can achieve our childhood dreamss like he did. and his childhood dreams bukan biase biase tau.

like being a disney imagineer, being in zero gravity and so forth. ade beberape. sekali lagi tak ingat. (biasela ingat nak tulis immediately after tengok, tapi kekangan masa, inilah akibatnye)

this is 1 hour lecture.

so bear it, or leave it!

sharing is caring

2010-07-25T20:27:00.002+08:00

hehe. i just thought that, this is soooo sweeet that shud be shared.
i mean. how we can actually shared our thought with something like this. I'M IMPRESSED!
*with two thumbs up*

and the most important thing is, this is sooo TRUE!

http://fc01.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2010/201/c/0/Because_he_is_a_muslim____by_Nayzak.swf

just something to write

2010-07-24T01:50:00.003+08:00

wahh. bestnye hari ni. 1st time rasa free (kejap) sebab minggu depan tak banyak sangat test2.

seminar pharmaco je kot. anywayy alamdulillah

paling penting dah habis end-posting exam for ENT. it was not as smooth as i hoped. anyway takde rezeki je kot. :)

kadang-kadang rasa macam exam practical kat hospital kurang efektif (dari segi pemberian markah la). yelah, masing-masing akan dapat doktor yang berbeza untuk exam. kalau dapat yang baik dan pemurah markah oklah. kalau yang susah, habislah. for the time being i tak kisah sangat sebab 2nd phase ni cgpa tak masuk pun subject clinical, but i am thinking of my future clinical year yang akan berlangsung selama 2 tahun. adakah wajar benda ni? my marks will really depend on this exam kot. pass or fail? u decide.

macam baru-baru ni saya exam clinical untuk medicine. memang sekejap la saya dengan examiner tu. tak banyak soalan. she evaluated more on the history i've taken. tapi saya biasa-biasa je tak delah dapat jawab sangat. he he.

and at the end die hanya tanya saya. 'hmm.. how much should i give you, okay, i'll give you pass'

and then she put the evaluation sheet on the book i was holding, and wrote the mark. which was pass but okayla. just pass. i mean, how actually the evaluation is done. takkan hanya pass and fail. and just put the mark. i mean what if i really depend on the mark for my cgpa or something (to have better grade), takkan just main bagi markah je. faham tak? faham tak?

or, maybe i am still beginner in this examination in clinical part. let see what is the pattern next year kan? ha ha. patho pun terkapai2

tapi takda apa pun yang boleh diubah. hanya boleh doa je dapat examiner yang baik hati. peace. betulla semua tu rezeki.

oh about the testsss i've taken previously. they were okay. but i don't get the marks that meet the requirement for myself to be rewarded.so i think maybe next time. plus bulan nih dah sengkek. peace.^^. anyhow, by looking at my way of study, they were good enuf kot, that i shud be grateful of. thank you Allah. tapi biaselah kan kedekut sangat dengan diri sendiri, sampai letak requirement tinggi-tinggi yang tak tercapai dek akalku. eceh.

walaubagaimanapun, itu satu CABARAN, Nadhirah!

oh esok ade jamuan. looking forward to it. walaupun penuh drama segala. haha

p/s: saya kene masak nasi minyak. ohh. tak penah masak bende nih. dahla untuk ramai2. will be needing kak we's help. peace. ^^

till then

just in case

2010-07-21T22:33:00.004+08:00

wahhh. lamenye tak update. ngehe

tengah buat buku rekod yang belambak2 (menangguh)..

oklah sedikit update. sedang posting ENT. end-posting on friday and saturday.. i guess dah immune dah dengan exam. kalau pharmacology term orang cakap dah develop 'tolerance' okeh. eceh

anywayyyy. oh aku bakal ditinggalkan rakan serumate. kejam kamu ayam. mahu pulang ke Malaysia.. huuuuuuuuu.

sedihnye mengenangkan raya di perantauan. semalam tengah makan sibuk masing-masing sibuk describe suasana pagi hari raya kat tempat masing-masing. eleh. belum puasa kot.

anyway this will be my first time beraya di perantauan. dan yang bestnye esoknya kami terus exam for 4th term. ohh.

actually since kitorang exam practical dulu. so, practical 2 minggu. saya adalah grup 1st yang akan praktikal untuk minggu pertama. so minggu kedua freeee..... (time nilah raya).

dan terus exam selepas itu.

jadi wajarkah nak pulang hanya untuk beraya. +jumpa kengkawan yang baik from overseas. rindu kot.

wajarkah?

tak wajar. ok. bye. i guess see you on 26th September (kalau nak balik) Malaysia. which semua org dah tak ade. cehh.

baik balik cuti bulan 12 je. Nadhirah, ade berannnnnnn?

hmmmmmm. we'll see (muke ragu2 sambil cube cover2 baru check homepage airasia. eleh)

entry peduli umat.

2010-07-16T21:07:00.004+08:00

entry ini tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang sudah tiada. mahupun yang di dalam gambar. serius.

bukak 'mukabuku' nampak ini.

astaghfirullahal azim. jika kanak-kanak pun dibiarkan sedemikian rupa. i can't imagine dunia masa hadapan macam mana. betullah mak ayah kata susah nak besarkan anak dalam dunia sekarang. penuh gejala sosial. masa hadapan? wahh makin banyak cabaran.

"ya Allah, jauhkan keturunan ku dan juga diriku dari segala maksiat dan tipu daya dunia. nauzubillahi min zalik."

sekadar renungan

p/s: sedih sebab adik sendiri pun banyak terpengaruh dengan benda-benda zaman sekarang. kalau dirumah tak diperkenalkan, di sekolah kawan-kawan yang punya pengaruh hebat. dulu saya tak lihat pentingnya hantar anak ke sekolah yang bagus didikan sahsiah pada peringkat sekolah rendah. mungkin hanya sekolah menengah. tapi sekarang?

ah ha

2010-07-14T23:47:00.002+08:00

sesungguhnya tajuk memang la takde kaitan dengan ape yang mahu ditulis.

yang penting sudah habis dah seksaan ku selama ini. yeeha...

walaupun ade exam forensic dan end posting exam ENT pulak untuk minggu depan. takpe.
tu belakang cerita. -_-"

yang penting minggu ni dah bole bernafas sikit. baru sahaja selesai exam MICROB.

paling penting plan hujung minggu dah FULLY BOOKED. sekian.

maklumlah kamiorang jarang free, so bile weekend free start la sume orang nak buat program itu ini.

and yeah

i'd made one erm.. more like a wish that if i can excel in both last patho and microb exam, i'll reward myself. hahahahahhaha. will buy something expensive. LETS SEEEEEE..

well that's only if i MANAGE to get excellent result up to my specification and percentage. ececeh. ~~dengan diri sendiri pun kedekut.~~

hmm.. about my confidence level so far after facing the test... i would say....50%. haha. serius tak tinggi. and its a PROBABILITY man.. it is whether you get it or you don't get it. (something we learned in MATH MOD for SPM)

okay. not funny. stop it.

so, lets pray hard for the best. MONEY vs SUCCESS

serius pathetic kene reward diri sendiri. or anyone?

i_i

2010-07-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

malas nak cakap banyak

DOMPET HILANG LAGI!

please pray

2010-07-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

friday 9/7: end posting exam-MEDICINE

saturday 10/7: seminar pharmacology & test pathology

monday 12/7: seminar pharmacology (again?)

tuesday 13/7: seminar pathology

wednesday 14/7: test microbe

next week after that, gonna have end posting exam for ENT. both theory and practical

and also seminar on community medicine

15 therapeutic exercises to be submitted end of july.

and

2nd internal assessment will be held at the end of august and i'm still with this routine. how am i suppose to make preparation for my 2nd IA which will include a very HUGE portion. VERY.

so work hard and PRAY HARD, Nadhirah!

tribute to maisarah ibrahim

2010-07-06T20:18:00.003+08:00

siapa? tengok nama pun dah tahu.

my youngest sister, 9 years old.

* courtesy of facebook. peace.

seriusly of almost 2 years hidup di perantauan, i had never miss anyone in particular. she is the 1st one. oh. nak balik rumah tu lain cerita. tu namanya nak lari dari masalah. STRESS

so, untuk sarah yang bermulut manis yang suka puji orang before mintak barang (itu sweet), sila bangga. ngehe.

oh bilang pasal exam (bila masa?), i just received a message from my colleague at hospital that my MEDICINE exam is tomorrow. nice one-lah. ~~lain kali kalau sejam nak exam barulah beritahu, baru cool~~

p/s: ops terbuat entry baru. can't help it. ;B

nice one-lah

2010-07-05T10:30:00.003+08:00

and yeah as i said today (isnin) coothiii (cuti), officially sebab diorang nak buat riot (ceh takde la riot sangat, basically macam protes la, tapi for safety reason cooothii la i). pasal harga minyak naik. -_-". oh bangalore harga minyak paling mahal in india. rm5++/L. bole tak diorang punye harga ikut negeri. and why i care so much? because i also tumpang orang balik sekolah naik kete.ngehe. so, kene paham2 sendiri lepas ni.

and lagi satu i learnt from living in this country, that they like to make protest or riot something like that. sikit2 riot. pelakon cite tamil mati pun riot. apekah? sampai one time i kat mall time tu, tibe2 diorang bagi announcement that the mall had to be closed immediately for that reason. apekah? tapi untuk kami yang kurang cuti, riot might be a good thing. ngehe. cuti free okay. except for ade klas ganti balik pada hari sabtu. apekah? adekah aku sudah kembali ke zaman sekolah? oh!

BACK TO THE TOPIC! aiseh lari tajuk pulak. nilah yang nak ditulis sebenarnye.

this song is calming and the lyrics can be understood easily. senang kot word die dan slow (ini yang lebih penting). ngehe. anyway, i miss my arabic learning. -_-

dedicated to all my hamidians friend and Darul Quran. i miss you all so much. REALLY.

have not so many time now.*sigh. oh ya, the schedule (i posted before), as i said before, is always subjected to change. and there are in fact many to be added -_-. more seminars and oh assignments and exam

you know i just learnt the style of seminar here. we have to submit some writing about the topics that will be conducted in the seminar before actually attending the seminar. and yeah speakers will be choose randomly. nasib baik this is ~~only~~ applied to other subjects but pharmacology. kalau pharmaco nak jugak, jenuh la. sebab it is done for EVERY FREAKING WEEK KOT.

haha. anyhow i just want to say that i'll be very busy 2 weeks onwards. so maybe there's no update till then. MAYBE.

please make doa' for me. really need them. =)

p/s: video credits to amirah saryati.

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE

2010-07-02T19:29:00.005+08:00

bangun bangun tidur je saya nampak nih.

dan ketika menaiki lif ketingkat 4 department of microbiology.

situasi: bergerak dari lecture hall seusai kelas microbiology oleh Dr Raj Gopal. menaiki lif ketingkat empat bersama Dr Raj Gopal dan seisi lif keseluruhannye WANITA kecuali beliau. ;b
(oh ya. situasi ni saya takde sebab saya naik tangga. malas nak tunggu lif. kire ni adaptasi cerita kawan2. lol)

Dr Raj Gopal: you know, i think i want to postpone the microbiology test to the other week because you have patho test at the same week too right?.....

sedetik kemudian...

seluruh ahli lif: wooohhhhhh.. *berteriakan* yeahhhhhhhhhh. thank you sir. thank you sir. (dah la tak jawab soalan lecturer)

keadaan lif sangat havoc smpai the lecturer tutup telinga sambil cakap shhh.........

what a relief. alhamdulilah

p/s:tah tah Dr Raj Gopal baca blog aku pakai google translate. tu yang die tukar tu.hahahaha

eh tak. tak. *sambil geleng2 kepala*

p/s2: oh ya atas cadangan athira *ahem*, kita tukar jadual ek

9/7 (jumaat): MEDICINE PRACTICAL dan mungkin THEORY (sebab semua kelas hari isnin bawak hari sabtu. strike punye pasal) <-- oh ini mungkin bad news

10/7 (sabtu): PATHO TEST

13/7 (selasa): MICROB TEST.

*TERTAKLUK KEPADA TUNDAAN. HAHAHA

counting days..

2010-06-29T19:46:00.002+08:00

next week gonna be a VERY BUSY week.

5/7: PATHOLOGY TEST
7/7: MICROBIOLOGY TEST
8/7: END POSTING EXAM- MEDICINE (PRACTICAL)<--ini cuak
10/7: END-POSTING EXAM- MEDICINE (THEORY)

continuous assessment lain berjalan seperti biase. -_-".

mujahadah!

hari jumaat

2010-06-25T20:44:00.004+08:00

entry ini bertajuk hari jumaat. ye. hari ini.

what a day lah.

pagi macam biase kelas 4 jam. oh oh.

hebatnye. tak mengantuk except time ENT yang diselamatkan dengan hidangan mentos oren kak we yang enak berkrim. heh. anyway ENT best hari ni. first time pay attention and boleh faham. (hahaha. maybe sebab dah posted kat ENT department so basically ade basic sikit2 so kalau die terang faham la sikit. ngehe. itu pun dah cukup membanggakan) yang penting HARI INI DALAM SEJARAH la. ngehe. so dengan poyo nya nak tayang notes yang dibuat ketika lecture.(ek eleh tetibe) hahaha. nak tunjuk sebenarnye tulisan yang macam hampeh sekian terima kasih. serius macam nak cop ayat BAIKI TULISAN ANDA kat muka sendiri.

ala. lagipun, kalau takde gamba mesti korang bosan kan? kan? cakap je la nakk. heehehe. ~~okay nadhirah. stop it.~~

anyway posting ENT yang berlangsung selama 2 minggu dah berakhir 2 minggu lalu, dan tiada end posting exam. oh yeah.mesti pelik kan? memang pelik sebab kami dah start posting medicine balik dan lepas tu sambung balik ENT selama 2 minggu. (beri peluang senior yang nak exam ENT). hehe

of 2 weeks of posting in ENT w got to learn exciting things and tried new ~~stuff~~ instrument. which kinda interesting. keh3

so, ni lah hasilnye selama 2 minggu ~~bergambar~~ berposting di ENT department.
no photos with patient sebab macam tak appropriate la pulak nak amik gambar dengan patient bagai. haha. so, amik dengan classmates pon jadi la ye.

ogie tak payah nganga sekali kot kan? haha

ececeh arham macam dah ade gaye doktor la konon.

so, now i am in medicine department dan berbalik kepada tajuk hari ini, hari jumaat ye ape ye. oh saya punya turn amik case pulak hari ni. and i thought it will be on GIT because that is our topic, but it turned out to be CNS lepas dah tanya tanya patient suma. so, agak gelabah tiba-tiba (cakap jelah tak prepared). tapi seriusly it was an interesting case. best jugak medicine ni. yelah selalunye medicine kan penat+balik paling lambat+pening. anyway pathology is very helpful. very very helpful.

so about the case, the patient tak bole pulak cakap english. so we were busy searching for translator and his wife also cannot speak english. luckily we had his friend with him that was very helpful. thanks uncle. except for certain scene yang lawak. haha.

so, the case was taken and some examination was done on the patient. lepas tu nak carik doctor balik untuk presentation. tapi penat pusing ICU, ward, OPD tak ade. so ape lagi. lepak2 kat tepi koridor borak pasal case and find some useful information for the case. suddenly we were approached by the same pakcik yang jadik translater tadi. kitorang pun macam eh, what's up with this pakcik tetibe.

and here came the story. pakcik tu ade anak yang kat paediatric icu, dan dari riak muka memang risau habis la dengan anak die.. (memang la kan). we asked about his child's problem. die cakap anak die dah lama kat icu, umur 34 hari dan tak improving. siap tunjuk kesan pada tangan die sebab bagi blood dekat anak die. die sibukk suro kitorang tengok anak die kat icu. since kitorang memang tengah tunggu doktor je. so malas la nak gerak jauh2, sebab takut doc carik, tak ke kene marah free je nanti. in fact it was a paediatric case, not medicine. tapi pakcik tu sungguh2 sangat ajak kami ke ICU tengok anak die.. apela sangat 2nd year studnet can do can. baru sekali kot posting paediatric. ngehe.

tapi disebabkan ade sorang classmate ni macam kesian sangat sebab die macam berharap, so he (arham, didalam gambar. ceh promotion) bring the uncle to the icu and the incle showed us his son. the patients looks normal grossly (without examination) tapi nangis-nangis. cuma badan die dipenuhi tube semua, tangan agak bengkak sebab infusion. memang kesian la.and arham pun macam motivate him. 'don't worry he'll be fine. we'll treat him properly. don't worry sir'.

banyak kali arham cakap tapi he still not satisfied.

i asked: what did the doctor said?
uncle: she said that he is not improving
arham: don't worry sir. he'll be fine.
and suddenly he revealed the main problem..

uncle: i'm not worry, its just that the cost of treatment in the ICU is rs3000 per day (rm280+-).
me: what is your job?
uncle: same with my friend (patient tadi) we all do cloth manufacturing.
me: ohh. so how long he has been here?
uncle: 10 days already and he is not improving. that is what i worried of.
me: (dalam hati kire kos perubatan die. rs30, 000 TOTAL for now. mak aii. 2 ribu lebih ni. padan la die risau habis. speechless kejap. biar arham take over.haha)

kami bergerak keluar dari icu and on the way out. arham cuba tenangkan die. kata mungkin hospital boleh kurangkan kos ke. mintak kurang ke. die cakap, he did ask. tapi hospital kata paling banyak pun bole kurang 20%. oklah tu sebenarnye. tapi kalau nak ikutkan ni baru 10 hari. the exact problem pun kitorg tak tahu. sebab tadi try mintak chart patient kat nurse die tengah gune pulak. aiseh. tapi kalau ikut bapak die, the baby ade loose stool yang chronic. tu la masuk icu.

tiba-tiba datang DR Achama, HOD paediatric ke arah ICU. so kami terserempak, dan tidak melepaskan peluang bertanya pasal patient tadi

us: what's the problem with the patient on bed .... (menerangkan kedudukan bed)
doc: oh. that patient. she is having dengue fever bla blabla...
us: she? no, not that one. he. he is at bed....... (terangkan balik mana bed tu)
doc: ha? (malas nak dengar). come come. show me.
in the icu..pakcik tu pun ikut kitorg kat belakang.

us: there. (tak sempat nak datang sana. doctor stop.)
doc: (doc cakap berbisik dan sangat secretive) ohh. that patient is very very sick. we thought he actually has infection in anorectal part, we suspect fungal infection, but after treatment, he is not improving. we then suspect for..... HIV (dengan nada yang sangat sangat perlahan. sebabnya word 'HIV' adalah taboo di sini. so memang kene sangat careful). so now we try to do blood test for the retrovirus (ceh. doc tukar nama)
us: oh. ok thank you doc.

bergegas ke ward balik. kemain lagi buat lawatan satu hospital padahal kene bentang kes.

pembentangan kes kurang memberangsangkan. however i learned so many useful thing today. so sangat best. hari ni sangat pack sampaikan habis klas pukul 5 pun tak sedar. well that is a good thing and also a bad thing. which means saya sangat penat. oh. oh. dan malam ni kene stay up HABISKAN assignment commed! wahh... 'HABISKAN'! berusaha! ^_^

so people! never take your health for granted.

be grateful and stay healthy!

additive stress

2010-06-23T19:15:00.008+08:00

di kelas microbiology, sebuah pagi yang hening by DR Raj Gopal, the HOD. (head of department)....

'hello students, i want to talk about you previous test recently. it was so bad. not just bad, but VERY BAD, not just VERY BAD, but VERY-VERY-VERY BAD.

of 188 students only 3 of you managed to get above 25/40. i don't know what happenned. you were good during the 1st test (masa 1st sememester), and 80+% of you pass and only 20% of you fail. and now the OPPOSITE. i don't know what happened. can you tell me, so that we can do some improvement on our teaching. you know, as a teacher nobody want to see their students fail, so tell me what's the problem?

*silent*

is it so difficult. i don't think its THAT difficult. if you were reading, definitely you can answer the question. you know, there was even one person that sent us empty sheet. do you think we'll give marks for tidiness.

*laughing*

so, what's the problem. are you busy with other subjects?

students in chorus: yesssssss.

a student:so many seminar, viva for every subject, everyday. so many continuous assessment every week.

a student: there's so many to cover yet so little time because of all other small-small test that are conducted everyday. everyday we have to prepare for the test, yet we still have another BIG test to be read.

Dr Raj Gopal: we can't do anything. i dont think you can give that as a reason. you know, you come farr away from your country to become a doctor and its your duty to study. don't get involve in other unrelated and unneccessary things. your 1st PRIORITY here is to study. so study well. and there's the motivational talk continue......

at the end of the talk:

so, upon your very bad performance during the previous test, we'll conduct a new test with the same topics 2 weeks from now. (basically its a re-test)

okay. another test! don't you know that 2 weeks from now we also have PATHOLOGY TEST at the same week despite the fact that we actually have assessments +tutorials/MCQs everyday. so when to read people? weekend? i've always waiting for weekend so that i can rest. but no.

and okay 15 therapeutic exercises to be submitted at the end of july. which each of them requires us to go to the record room in hospital, search for the case file (banyak gile kot, since india semua manually), trying to understand doctor's 'neat' handwriting, write the priscription given (kalau paham), find additional information in text book which is only in the library, write it properly. send it to the lecturer untuk pengesahan, if accepted can be written in the record, but if not we need to do it again until approved. the step yang memerlukan i pergi check kat doc before tulis tu mungkin terpaksa diskip sebab kekangan masa. aish.

and did i said that patho also want to conduct seminar?

and COMMUNITY MEDICINE DEPARTMENT also don't want to lose chance. and here we go, project and the seminar that we got this evening. fine.

not that i got good marks in the so called worst microbe test. but i just had enough.
maybe the re-test is the best for all, so that we can improve our marks (try to be positive). cannot be selfish. padahal markah sendiri pun rendah. hek eleh.

but despite all this, i feel so stress that i really want to run away from this area. area of tense and everything. give me one day off. away from here. that's all i need

my marks for my continuous assessment every week is getting low and low. because you know the feeling when you gonna have the test again next week. FED UP. that's the word

and do you know the feeling that when Monday comes, you can't wait for weekend to come for you to rest

do you know the feeling when you don't feel the excitement of learning something. very exam-oriented.

not that i haven't try to adapt. i've tried and here i am again after 3 months of the same tiring routine.

3rd semester was tiring but okay, 4th semester is challenging, and according to the seniors, 5th term is even worst. when it is closer to the professional exam...

but do you know the feeling that you gonna repeat the same tensing, stressful routine for at least another 3 more months that will be closed by our second internal assessment, which you know there is no study week (ending 'terbaeek'), so no gap between the class and exam.

what i can say is. I NEED A BREAK!! TIRED..

TT_TT SERIOUSLY

joke of the day.

2010-06-22T18:33:00.002+08:00

sejak kebelakangan ni bingit jugak telinga. mana taknye, time-time ni sibuk pulak diorang nak tebuk lubang kat balkoni.
mesti pelik kan? tebuk lubang. yes. mana taknya, balkoni dibuat tanpa lubang so sekarang dah nak hampir setahun duduk kat sini baru die nak buat lubang. oh itu cerita lain

ceritanya, macam biasa malam-malam makan secara berjemaah di rumah kak we. dan sedang busy-busy ~~bersembang sambil~~ makan, tiba tiba....

DING DONG

oh. bunyi loceng berbunyi. bikin saspen je

tapi memang saspen pun sebab pintu tu terbukak sikit. so, agak kelam kabut la semua berlari-lari anak ke bilik. dan agak musykil sapala yang datang ke rumah, maghrib-maghrib ni. heh

saya? steady je sebab pintu tu terbukak pun tak nampak pun saya. kire safe area la ni. haha

kami saspek orang itu adalah tukang yang nak tebuk lubang balkoni tu la.

dan berlarilah seorang kwan saya, yang selalunya menjadi mangsa volunteer bila bab-bab nak berurusan dengan orang tempatan ni.

and here the conversation:
keadaan pintu tidak dibuka, eh dibuka sedikit sahaja. bercakap dibelakang pintu.

kawan saya: who's there?
dia: %$#^&% (tak jelas)
kawan saya: who's there again? DO YOU WANT TO MAKE HOLE?

sebenarnye masih tak jelas. dan kawan 2 ingin membantu.

kawan 2: YOU FROM WHERE?
kami: hahahahhaha
kawan 2: eh eh where are you from?

note the highlighted sentence. masalah direct translation yang kadang-kadang bunyik die dah lain macam.

and tadaa! itulah the JOKE OF THE DAY!

p's: jangan cakap hambarr

18 JUN 2010

2010-06-18T17:54:00.002+08:00

wah dah tengah bulan. hmm.
tak tahu nak bincang ape di sini

oklah terus kepada motif.
disebabkan anda suka sangat blogging walaupun tak nampak faedahnye.
so, wish kat blog kira oklah kan.

HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY NURUL HUDA BINTI IBRAHIM

ceh baru 12 tahun tai perangai overr.

buat MOHD LOQMAN IBRAHIM. happy belated 15th birthday on last 12th JUNE.

ha. kan dah jimat boleh wish 2 orang sekaligus. :b

hadiah? tak payah la. bukan kak irah ade kat Malaysia pun kan. so tak perlu! *sambil geleng-geleng kepala* ngeh3

tapi disebabkan kakak baik hati. anda akan diberi hadiah jugak.

dengan syarat:
STRAIGHT A UPSR DAN PMR! ada berannnn? *gaya adnan sempit*

alah kacang je tu. esp loqman. kalau loqman dapat 9 As PMR, bende yang loqman cakap dalam phone tu kakak beli. hehe. serius ni.

ok. tu je lah. ~~dah macam tulis kad hari jadi pulak panjang panjang.~~